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So last night was absolutely intense and stressful as hell...I can't give any real details as to what happened until I'm 100% positive that it's ok for me to do so.
I don't deal with tense situations very well. I always look calm, I don't panic or hyperventilate or cry or anything like that, so people think that I'm just really good at handling pressure.
But I'm really not. There was a good half hour last night during which I honestly had no idea what to do or how to react or who to call or how to help. I guess I just try to keep the appearance of a calm, collected person because I know that when you have a group of hysterical, panicky people...well, nothing gets accomplished.
In any event, it's been over a month since my last update which means I've basically lost touch with the entire human race save for maybe two or three people. I picked a great time to start ignoring humanity didn't I? Just when everyone is finally home together for winter break, I decide to pretend that everyone doesn't exist.
It's been more than 12 hours since my last cigarette and I'm going crazy. My natural instinct in times of stress is to grab a cigarette, and when I can't, the anxiety increases by a lot.
Well, on a positive note, my laptop was being stupid before and now it's better. The keyboard was all fucked up and everytime I tried to hit "y" I'd get a backspace and everytime I hit backspace I'd get both a "y" and a backspace so I could never delete anything and everytime I hit "m" I would also get enter...ugh.
So I called Dell tech support and they gave me a lecture on keyboard safety and told me to be very careful not to spill anything on the keyboard. Damn, I was pissed. I am so careful with this fucking computer it's ridiculous, and I have definitely never, ever in my life ever spilled anything on this keyboard or any other for that matter. I have a little more respect for my personal property, especially the personal property that costs 1000+ dollars.
Anyway - it seems to have just randomly fixed itself, and I'm not gonna complain.
Last night was bad...and I feel like I saw it coming, and that freaks me out, and I can't even talk about it for multiple reasons. I guess I just have intuition, but it's still blowing my mind.
It's 3:35 and I haven't taken a shower or gotten dressed or done anything yet today.
I don't deal with tense situations very well. I always look calm, I don't panic or hyperventilate or cry or anything like that, so people think that I'm just really good at handling pressure.
But I'm really not. There was a good half hour last night during which I honestly had no idea what to do or how to react or who to call or how to help. I guess I just try to keep the appearance of a calm, collected person because I know that when you have a group of hysterical, panicky people...well, nothing gets accomplished.
In any event, it's been over a month since my last update which means I've basically lost touch with the entire human race save for maybe two or three people. I picked a great time to start ignoring humanity didn't I? Just when everyone is finally home together for winter break, I decide to pretend that everyone doesn't exist.
It's been more than 12 hours since my last cigarette and I'm going crazy. My natural instinct in times of stress is to grab a cigarette, and when I can't, the anxiety increases by a lot.
Well, on a positive note, my laptop was being stupid before and now it's better. The keyboard was all fucked up and everytime I tried to hit "y" I'd get a backspace and everytime I hit backspace I'd get both a "y" and a backspace so I could never delete anything and everytime I hit "m" I would also get enter...ugh.
So I called Dell tech support and they gave me a lecture on keyboard safety and told me to be very careful not to spill anything on the keyboard. Damn, I was pissed. I am so careful with this fucking computer it's ridiculous, and I have definitely never, ever in my life ever spilled anything on this keyboard or any other for that matter. I have a little more respect for my personal property, especially the personal property that costs 1000+ dollars.
Anyway - it seems to have just randomly fixed itself, and I'm not gonna complain.
Last night was bad...and I feel like I saw it coming, and that freaks me out, and I can't even talk about it for multiple reasons. I guess I just have intuition, but it's still blowing my mind.
It's 3:35 and I haven't taken a shower or gotten dressed or done anything yet today.