gahhh
so i guess lifes going pretty good for me. Im starting for my varsity softball team, i just aced my pre calc test..i got a 25 on my 2nd act..and its almost summertime. I should be happy right?
well im not. I dont know whats the deal. Maybe its because people blow me off...or maybe its because i start to like people to fast, or maybe just people that don't like me back. Its like i dont even get a chance.
On top of that i screw things up with my friends...and they are the people that mean the most to me. Without friends, i wouldnt have anything to live for. My best friend in particular gives me a reason to come to school everyday so i can hear the "update" or just have a simple conversation where we dont have to say much..but we know exactly what the other is saying. Shes the reason (plus others) why i have a life. And then i just mess things up, but i really didnt mean to. These people are my real friends and them mean more to me than any guy would. I just didnt want to be a bad friend, and that exactly what i was...a bad friend. Why cant things go well for me the way i want them to?
Its like theres a curse on me or something, somebody, somewhere is cursing me wishing for me to be miserable and to have this burning, torcherous feeling inside.
well im not. I dont know whats the deal. Maybe its because people blow me off...or maybe its because i start to like people to fast, or maybe just people that don't like me back. Its like i dont even get a chance.
On top of that i screw things up with my friends...and they are the people that mean the most to me. Without friends, i wouldnt have anything to live for. My best friend in particular gives me a reason to come to school everyday so i can hear the "update" or just have a simple conversation where we dont have to say much..but we know exactly what the other is saying. Shes the reason (plus others) why i have a life. And then i just mess things up, but i really didnt mean to. These people are my real friends and them mean more to me than any guy would. I just didnt want to be a bad friend, and that exactly what i was...a bad friend. Why cant things go well for me the way i want them to?
Its like theres a curse on me or something, somebody, somewhere is cursing me wishing for me to be miserable and to have this burning, torcherous feeling inside.