Random thoughts and events of the week
I sit here and wonder why things happen the way they do. Sometimes things occur that you would never expect. How do u prepare for such things? Why does life seem so surreal at times? At times it feels as though you are living a soap opera. But I've come to the conclusion that sometimes the outcome of these events have to do with choices made. When these choices are made, you never think that they can come back and hunt you. On the other hand matters take place that you have no control over. At times I wish that I was a kid again. Things seem so easy, although at the time it felt like it was so hard. I just wish that sometimes we were warned, like a little sign that showed the risks and the outcomes of a choice. But that is asking for to much.
I really wish that I could go on the subway and not get lost. So I could go visit him. I know he needs me more then anything right now. I am so upset with myself. I should of just gone and not care if I got lost. I bet eventually I would of found my way to that city. I know that it helps that he can call me and talk to me about what is going on. He is so brave. I don't know how I would react. I just hope that his parents don't mind and understand. I know they will. I know he feels that his mother will be heart broken for the rest of her life. But I believe that she will be okay. A mothers love oversees everything. I just wish I was there. I know I should be and I feel so selfish for not taking that risk of getting lost in Seoul and eventually seeing him. If anything I better make it this weekend. I wish I could give him a hug and just comfort him because I know that is what he needs. I am so glad I met him. He is so special to me. I mean the way he just befriended me and his kindness and tolerance just make him so great. I just wish that this did not happen to him. I just wish that I could take it away. He is so strong because I know damn well I wouldn't know what to do or how to act. I feel so guilty for not being there. I hope that I am doing enough by being there for him. I just can't wait to see him. I love him very much and I am so happy that I met him and that we have such a great friendship and that he trusts me so much.
To other events of my weekend. I went to Itawon with Elvia. We met Julie at Yongson. Julie and I went to Osan we went shopping. She did more then me since she is finaly leaving Korea. She is so awesome and I am so glad that I met her and hung out. It is so funny that when I am with either Julie or Elvia we always eat American food. They don't care for Korean food. I on the other hand love Korean food and would rather have it then American food. After a nice day in Osan we went back to Itawon to meet Elvia. We went to our rooms and got ready to go to a club. We were being so silly and giving Elvia a hard time. She was telling us to hurry and get ready and that we had a time limit we just ignored her and acted like we were going to take our time. We left around 21:30 and headed for the club. It was fun. Dancing bachatas, regetton, salsa and merenge. Elvia and I danced and acted so silly. Guys were asking to buy us drinks but we were like NO we have water bottles. LOL! I had so much fun. We were silly girls. It was awesome. We talked about everything and it was like a cool sleep over. It made me think of Court and the time we stayed up talking all night about boys. I also thought of Lorena and the time I stayed over her house and we talked all night. I miss friends back home so much. But I am thankful that I've made some awesome friends here too.
Watching the Super BOWL I HOPE THE PATRIOTS KICK ASS score now is 24 -14.
This whole month is going to be super busy at work. I am just glad that the LT is so great and he isn't a hard ass. Greg is coming back so I am so happy. Next week! On the 15 I am so excited and can't wait.
I really wish that I could go on the subway and not get lost. So I could go visit him. I know he needs me more then anything right now. I am so upset with myself. I should of just gone and not care if I got lost. I bet eventually I would of found my way to that city. I know that it helps that he can call me and talk to me about what is going on. He is so brave. I don't know how I would react. I just hope that his parents don't mind and understand. I know they will. I know he feels that his mother will be heart broken for the rest of her life. But I believe that she will be okay. A mothers love oversees everything. I just wish I was there. I know I should be and I feel so selfish for not taking that risk of getting lost in Seoul and eventually seeing him. If anything I better make it this weekend. I wish I could give him a hug and just comfort him because I know that is what he needs. I am so glad I met him. He is so special to me. I mean the way he just befriended me and his kindness and tolerance just make him so great. I just wish that this did not happen to him. I just wish that I could take it away. He is so strong because I know damn well I wouldn't know what to do or how to act. I feel so guilty for not being there. I hope that I am doing enough by being there for him. I just can't wait to see him. I love him very much and I am so happy that I met him and that we have such a great friendship and that he trusts me so much.
To other events of my weekend. I went to Itawon with Elvia. We met Julie at Yongson. Julie and I went to Osan we went shopping. She did more then me since she is finaly leaving Korea. She is so awesome and I am so glad that I met her and hung out. It is so funny that when I am with either Julie or Elvia we always eat American food. They don't care for Korean food. I on the other hand love Korean food and would rather have it then American food. After a nice day in Osan we went back to Itawon to meet Elvia. We went to our rooms and got ready to go to a club. We were being so silly and giving Elvia a hard time. She was telling us to hurry and get ready and that we had a time limit we just ignored her and acted like we were going to take our time. We left around 21:30 and headed for the club. It was fun. Dancing bachatas, regetton, salsa and merenge. Elvia and I danced and acted so silly. Guys were asking to buy us drinks but we were like NO we have water bottles. LOL! I had so much fun. We were silly girls. It was awesome. We talked about everything and it was like a cool sleep over. It made me think of Court and the time we stayed up talking all night about boys. I also thought of Lorena and the time I stayed over her house and we talked all night. I miss friends back home so much. But I am thankful that I've made some awesome friends here too.
Watching the Super BOWL I HOPE THE PATRIOTS KICK ASS score now is 24 -14.
This whole month is going to be super busy at work. I am just glad that the LT is so great and he isn't a hard ass. Greg is coming back so I am so happy. Next week! On the 15 I am so excited and can't wait.