Rainy day - rainy mood
cozy. Home alone with my dogs and cats. Watching the news on the bombing in Pakistan at the hotel. Such sadness in the world. And I am thankful to be in my safe home with the thunder and rain coming down. Peaceful and cozy. Feeling sad for the ones not so fortunate. So many don't even know where their next drink of water is coming from.
I have been depressed lately. Empty nest syndrome. But getting used to it more now. Missing Josh. Reflecting on past mistakes I have made and wishing for a do over. Won't, can't happen.
Had Xrays and have to see an Ortho specialist. Arthritis in my hips. Hurts too. Probably nothing they can do except tell me to lose weight and take meds for pain. I read where 1 lb of weight loss takes 4 lbs of pressure of your knees. Wow. Makes me look at losing weight differently.
I smoke. Too much lately. Sometimes I wonder if it isn't a slow suicide on purpose. I know I shouldn't be smoking. It is hard to give up when you enjoy it. I am a Christian but by no means a finished work. Poor testimony I guess to claim Christ and keep up with this nasty habit. But by the same token isn't it a poor testimony to be so fat and unhealthy? Suppose so. Our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. I drink too much coke too.
I feel sad lately. I am trying to be more positive but it is hard. The world is such a mess. Been doing a lot of reading. Especially on end times. Prophecy. It is very interesting. Sometimes scary and sometimes feels me with the Hope of Christ's soon return. Makes me realize my priorities are not exactly where I would like them to be.
The rain has stopped and I was so enjoying it. Smells fresh, the air coming in the windows. Love it.
I hope my next post is more up. I know this one is down in the dumps. But that is how I am feeling today. Lately been feeling down a lot. I want to laugh.
Toodles for now my dear journal.
Miss U Josh. Wish we could talk.
I have been depressed lately. Empty nest syndrome. But getting used to it more now. Missing Josh. Reflecting on past mistakes I have made and wishing for a do over. Won't, can't happen.
Had Xrays and have to see an Ortho specialist. Arthritis in my hips. Hurts too. Probably nothing they can do except tell me to lose weight and take meds for pain. I read where 1 lb of weight loss takes 4 lbs of pressure of your knees. Wow. Makes me look at losing weight differently.
I smoke. Too much lately. Sometimes I wonder if it isn't a slow suicide on purpose. I know I shouldn't be smoking. It is hard to give up when you enjoy it. I am a Christian but by no means a finished work. Poor testimony I guess to claim Christ and keep up with this nasty habit. But by the same token isn't it a poor testimony to be so fat and unhealthy? Suppose so. Our body is the temple of the Holy Spirit. I drink too much coke too.
I feel sad lately. I am trying to be more positive but it is hard. The world is such a mess. Been doing a lot of reading. Especially on end times. Prophecy. It is very interesting. Sometimes scary and sometimes feels me with the Hope of Christ's soon return. Makes me realize my priorities are not exactly where I would like them to be.
The rain has stopped and I was so enjoying it. Smells fresh, the air coming in the windows. Love it.
I hope my next post is more up. I know this one is down in the dumps. But that is how I am feeling today. Lately been feeling down a lot. I want to laugh.
Toodles for now my dear journal.
Miss U Josh. Wish we could talk.