Saiyuki (Goku/Sanzo)
Title: Hungry
Author/Artist: GuiltyRed
Beta: YohjiDeranged
Rating: PG13
Warnings: vaguely innocent descriptions of intimate acts
Word count: 254
Summary: Goku knows what he wants, but doesn’t know how to get it.
Prompt: July 9 - #55. Saiyuki, Goku/Sanzo: Unrequited longing - from either
How should I feel? I belong to him - I think I’ve belonged to him for a very long time - but it’s not really what I want. No, that’s not it. It’s the kind of belonging, like the way Jeep belongs to Hakkai. I don’t want that with him.
I want to belong to Sanzo the way Hakkai belongs to Gojyo. I want him to hold me in the night, I want to smell his skin and taste his sweat and…other things, the way Hakkai and Gojyo tangle together in their tent when they think I’m not looking.
I don’t know if he’d trust me to do things with my mouth the way they do with each other, but I’d let him do it to me. The way Hakkai moans when he kisses Gojyo down there, the way he holds onto the kappa, tense fingers digging into skin - I want Sanzo to hold me like that and moan as he kisses me…down there.
The way Gojyo pins Hakkai to the ground and…does that thing like animals do, that thing that makes Hakkai growl like an animal himself - I want that. Sometimes I want Sanzo to pin me to the ground; other times, I want to pin him. Those are the times I have to be alone for a while, where the rest of the guys can’t see me.
Especially Sanzo. I don’t want him to see me acting like a kappa, or a monkey.
But sometimes, I make sure he can just barely hear it.