who knows..
i had such a BAD DAY. just everything, i havent let myself be emotionally distressed in a long time. i havent just let myself cry over florida in a long time. i used to come home, go upstairs, cry, come downstairs, and be strong again. but lately ive just let myself become a solid rock, not letting myself feel much about the situation. i mean, i feel sad, i feel lost, but i havent let myself be angry or depressed or just FEEL things i need to feel. ive just sat here and be strong for everyone, for my friends, for my mom especially, for sheila, for ted... for my brother, n for my dad. ive had to explain my situation so many times and it never gets easier to explain. i have to be so strong for my mom, i cant let her know how much this is really killing me inside. it would hurt her so bad..
so today, i just kind of was emotionally DRAINED. i just let myself go, and at a BAD time.. in school. ugh it was horrible, and embaressing. i hate crying in school, it makes me feel like idk.. like im stupid or something. idk.. grace made me feel better.. and mark made me laugh a lot on the way home.. so they helped <33 thank you guys.. and christina.. just remember i love you so much <33 no matter what happens with matt<33
no friends tonight, sry guys, teds on the phone<33
so today, i just kind of was emotionally DRAINED. i just let myself go, and at a BAD time.. in school. ugh it was horrible, and embaressing. i hate crying in school, it makes me feel like idk.. like im stupid or something. idk.. grace made me feel better.. and mark made me laugh a lot on the way home.. so they helped <33 thank you guys.. and christina.. just remember i love you so much <33 no matter what happens with matt<33
no friends tonight, sry guys, teds on the phone<33