outburst of emotions
What u see is what u get, I didn't try to lie or spin stories, I already told you I might not be able to cope, but hell, this is really difficult to cope!
I tried to recover. I returned as a happy person this Monday smiling after my full of power Sunday cardio. i try to burn off my angst, wanna return with the energy to take on all the tasks but my energy spiralled down so rapidly, that it shocked me. i can feel the energy being sapped out of me even as i breathe.
once again, i was defeated... i dunno how long it will take me to get back on my feet and battle on. i don't fear hardship, as long as i can visualise what im working hard for. i must see the prospect, but i don see in my current job. i must see the importance, but i also don see this, to the extent that i believe i will be inside the next retrenchment list.
anyway, on hindsight, i tot that UT is important, so i spent a lot of time and effort mastering the tool and optimising my process, really a lot, up to the extent of working 15h days on end, but one fine day, they decide to scrap most of the tools and i became useless as well. life is never certain, enjoy it while u can. m thankful that post the 15h work days ordeal, my worklife took a better turn and i actually enjoyed my work environment and my job, and the shift engineers rock! its really wonderful to have a team with everyone putting in effort to grow and advance together! such a really a pity that all these gotta end. *in tears*
well, take things as they come and ill be fine.