Early morning thoughts...
You'd be amazed at what you find flowing through your mind at 4:30 in the morning after a night of Half-Life. Yeah, I know it's over twelve hours after that fact, but this is the first time I've been near a computer since then. I'm finding myself reflecting on my loneliness mostly. I realize that it's not exactly the best thing to be pondering at length, but I am. No matter what I tell people, I can't stand being alone. Admittedly, I've grown "comfortable" in my lot in life, but that doesn't mean I have to like it. All I do lately, it seems, is work, sleep and eat. I barely have time for friends or anything else. Everyone is telling me "Get out and meet someone..." or "There's plenty of single girls out there your age...". It gets tiresome after a while. I find myself reminiscing about her. Yeah, I know, things ended on a sour note, but we always did care about each other. I'm not saying that I'd ever ask her back out, but I do miss the little things, especially around this time of year. Like the walks out in North Park, laying in bed holding each other, dancing with her under the stars in her room... those type of things. I really do miss her, she was great... when things were fine. I guess that's what really did it. We were to young to try and start a relationship that serious. Oh well, she's happy with him, and that's what matters. I guess I'm just so lonely I'm trying to hold onto something that made me happy. Oh well, as I've said before, such is my way on the path. My wa increases. Anyway, I'd better quit typin before I start gettin emotional...