Pen Is Envy.
Is it being too gullible to believe
the best in others?
It's sickening
everytime someone proves you wrong.
Is this world really that predictable?
Or am I just warped up, living in this
insane little world?
Should I embrace
reality, and conform?
Reality would mean a life of
stepping on others, looking out for
oneself, always pushing, rushing, charging
for personal gains regardless of what happens to others.
But how if I don't want to believe in that.
Are you weaker guarding yourself against others
and all possible malicious actions against you,
or weaker not giving in, despite what everyone else says?
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Did she screw me up?
Am I a broken doll at the end of the manufacturing line?
Why do I feel so imperfect,
so unworthy.
What's wrong with me?
I really don't know.
I feel so restricted,
so self-conscious,
so tied down.
I'm in shackles.
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Screw it.
I'm so annoyed.