(no subject)
I thought everything was going okay. I thought I was becoming the Emma I used to be. I was actually believing what my Dad is always telling me. I thought things were getting better..
Until I found out that I'm for sure definitely without a doubt NOT going to Taft next year. I sorta knew it was going to happen, but I honestly thought I had a chance to let my parents hear what I wanted to say and maybe maybe they'd hear me out for once.
I'm so fucking sick of moving school. I've moved school every year since 4th grade & it seems to be impossible to stay at a school for more than 2 years.
The one time I actually enjoy and am comfterable with the school I'm at and have friends who don't always ditch me or couldn't give a rats ass about me, I have to move & move schools.
I've changed so much in the last 2 years, more so in the last year. I like who I am now, and without even being able to do much I have to change, yet again.
I know I messed up and I do blame myself, but I also blame my parents. They knew things were going to change. They've had plenty of time to figure out a way for me to get to Taft from Santa Monica. I offered several times to get my license and drive myself to Taft EVERYDAY, but no. It's too much driving. FUCK THAT. I'm offering. How can it gt better? I'm willing to get up at the crack of dawn, be at school by 8 & hopefully go to club swim and be home late. It would be easier second semester considering practice maybe would end at 5, unless times change to the morning.
But no. They didnt even let me try. I STILL dont have my license and if I dont get it soon, I'll have to redo all the Driving Ed SHIT. yes.
I'm gonna pass math during summer school. Maybe maybe it'll prove to my parents that I can actually try and want to stay at Taft more than anything at this moment. Especially considering they havent taken me out of Taft or enrolled me into SAMO.
Maybe I do have a chance??...
Until I found out that I'm for sure definitely without a doubt NOT going to Taft next year. I sorta knew it was going to happen, but I honestly thought I had a chance to let my parents hear what I wanted to say and maybe maybe they'd hear me out for once.
I'm so fucking sick of moving school. I've moved school every year since 4th grade & it seems to be impossible to stay at a school for more than 2 years.
The one time I actually enjoy and am comfterable with the school I'm at and have friends who don't always ditch me or couldn't give a rats ass about me, I have to move & move schools.
I've changed so much in the last 2 years, more so in the last year. I like who I am now, and without even being able to do much I have to change, yet again.
I know I messed up and I do blame myself, but I also blame my parents. They knew things were going to change. They've had plenty of time to figure out a way for me to get to Taft from Santa Monica. I offered several times to get my license and drive myself to Taft EVERYDAY, but no. It's too much driving. FUCK THAT. I'm offering. How can it gt better? I'm willing to get up at the crack of dawn, be at school by 8 & hopefully go to club swim and be home late. It would be easier second semester considering practice maybe would end at 5, unless times change to the morning.
But no. They didnt even let me try. I STILL dont have my license and if I dont get it soon, I'll have to redo all the Driving Ed SHIT. yes.
I'm gonna pass math during summer school. Maybe maybe it'll prove to my parents that I can actually try and want to stay at Taft more than anything at this moment. Especially considering they havent taken me out of Taft or enrolled me into SAMO.
Maybe I do have a chance??...