And so it goes.
The last week has been incredibly... enlightening. In many ways.
For starters, I found out the real reason my parents divorced. My dad moved to his own apartment for a while because he was feeling depressed and not himself, but my mom and him were still together. One day, he took me and a brother to meet a "friend" of his, Julie. I was young at the time, 8 or 9, and my head was totally addled from undiagnosed hypothyroidism. So I didn't think anything of it. When I came home to my mom's house next, I went and told her all about the "nice lady with the dog" who I'd had so much fun with. Who, it turned out, my dad was having an affair with. Oops. My mom did tell me it was the best way to find out about it, from me, because I was so innocent about it. Either way, it sucked extra for me - since my parents were so distracted by the divorce, they didn't notice me getting incredibly fucking sick to the point where, when the doctor diagnosed me, he straight up said I should not have been able to get out of bed at all my thyroid levels were so low.
The reason the topic came up was because my mom was telling me - her, since my dad hasn't actually told me anything directly, which irritates me - that he and Julie are getting divorced. Julie, it turns out, is a manipulative fucker. The whole town knew - turns out everyone already knew what she was like, except apparently my dad and myself.
Julie decided to clean out my dad's bank account before she left. Which is just delightful. I now have no college money. I'll probably have to go to some cheap-ass Idaho university which I don't want to do on infinite levels. Or go into infinite debt. Or both. I now have no money for the MRI/surgery I need for my ankle. I have no money for the Dexcom I need for my diabetes.
And I feel incredibly fucking used. Julie played me for how many years - I've trusted her with everything. She played the nice, helpful stepmom. She played my dad too. And I was the last to find out how god damn manipulative she was because I'm so damn oblivious and I feel like an idiot.
Basically, life sucks, my future may be ruined, and I have no ability to read people. God dammit.
For starters, I found out the real reason my parents divorced. My dad moved to his own apartment for a while because he was feeling depressed and not himself, but my mom and him were still together. One day, he took me and a brother to meet a "friend" of his, Julie. I was young at the time, 8 or 9, and my head was totally addled from undiagnosed hypothyroidism. So I didn't think anything of it. When I came home to my mom's house next, I went and told her all about the "nice lady with the dog" who I'd had so much fun with. Who, it turned out, my dad was having an affair with. Oops. My mom did tell me it was the best way to find out about it, from me, because I was so innocent about it. Either way, it sucked extra for me - since my parents were so distracted by the divorce, they didn't notice me getting incredibly fucking sick to the point where, when the doctor diagnosed me, he straight up said I should not have been able to get out of bed at all my thyroid levels were so low.
The reason the topic came up was because my mom was telling me - her, since my dad hasn't actually told me anything directly, which irritates me - that he and Julie are getting divorced. Julie, it turns out, is a manipulative fucker. The whole town knew - turns out everyone already knew what she was like, except apparently my dad and myself.
Julie decided to clean out my dad's bank account before she left. Which is just delightful. I now have no college money. I'll probably have to go to some cheap-ass Idaho university which I don't want to do on infinite levels. Or go into infinite debt. Or both. I now have no money for the MRI/surgery I need for my ankle. I have no money for the Dexcom I need for my diabetes.
And I feel incredibly fucking used. Julie played me for how many years - I've trusted her with everything. She played the nice, helpful stepmom. She played my dad too. And I was the last to find out how god damn manipulative she was because I'm so damn oblivious and I feel like an idiot.
Basically, life sucks, my future may be ruined, and I have no ability to read people. God dammit.