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im having mixed feelings. first i dont want to pack. AT ALL. i dont care if i leave everything here. packing is the devil!
im gonna miss everyone here. especially my sisters and matt and ian. i dont know what i wouldve done without them.
everything here is so much simpler and relaxing and beautiful and clean. even the parties in the fields seem so much more innocent and truthful. i can just go for a ride on my horse and drop everything and not have a care in the world. you feel like u know the whole town--there's no drama, no enemies, no obligations. i can have the time of my life hanging out in a cemetary all day. (oh yea had my first experience with a cremated guy. that kinda did me in) then i think about irvine and every muscle tightens with the dread of all the crap ive got to do. im not even there yet and im stressing. i find myself making plans w/ people here for christmas and getting super excited about that next break and school hasnt even started yet!
then again i think about seeing chris and jacob on the 13 and taking andrew to the airport and going to dinner with merce and then going to see beautiful meghan in san fran!!!! eeee!!!! and of course dates w/ mark and getting all giggly goofy excited to where i can hardly sit still and decorating my apt. and i can't wait to have girl's nites and drink w/ kristine and live nude parties, and gossip and get my audition over w/ and start my classes (which i really am excited about) and start a crazy list of adventures that will keep this school year completely packed! eeeee!
so all in all i think im lucky to feel at home in two places and deep down i am ready to go back. i think if i stayed here much longer i'd get in trouble.
im having mixed feelings. first i dont want to pack. AT ALL. i dont care if i leave everything here. packing is the devil!
im gonna miss everyone here. especially my sisters and matt and ian. i dont know what i wouldve done without them.
everything here is so much simpler and relaxing and beautiful and clean. even the parties in the fields seem so much more innocent and truthful. i can just go for a ride on my horse and drop everything and not have a care in the world. you feel like u know the whole town--there's no drama, no enemies, no obligations. i can have the time of my life hanging out in a cemetary all day. (oh yea had my first experience with a cremated guy. that kinda did me in) then i think about irvine and every muscle tightens with the dread of all the crap ive got to do. im not even there yet and im stressing. i find myself making plans w/ people here for christmas and getting super excited about that next break and school hasnt even started yet!
then again i think about seeing chris and jacob on the 13 and taking andrew to the airport and going to dinner with merce and then going to see beautiful meghan in san fran!!!! eeee!!!! and of course dates w/ mark and getting all giggly goofy excited to where i can hardly sit still and decorating my apt. and i can't wait to have girl's nites and drink w/ kristine and live nude parties, and gossip and get my audition over w/ and start my classes (which i really am excited about) and start a crazy list of adventures that will keep this school year completely packed! eeeee!
so all in all i think im lucky to feel at home in two places and deep down i am ready to go back. i think if i stayed here much longer i'd get in trouble.