johnny cash has a sexy voice
or maybe I'm just insane. the second seems so much more likely. well life is hard when all you do is give and give yourself to other people and never ask for anything in return. i wonder how long an entry about my current life situation will be. lets see shall we?
lets start with something good shall we? my debts have been consolidated and two of them have been paid back in full. i'm currentally at work, at the coolest job ever. VINSTOCK! i work with hannah and blake. it's really nice when your boss's are personal friends of yours. i get paid in cash at the end of my shifts so it's like taking home tips every night. but big ones! i'm in school and my grades are respectable. nothing like the last time i was in murray. john offers me so much peace and security that i can relax enough to study without worrying about other things around me. also i'm in my own space, with a great new computer (i had two computers break on me in one week. my parents got me a new big one that wont break :) ) and a desk and a beautiful bed with satin sheets (because my boy loves me)and..it's perfect for studying and study breaks :).
okay now to the stuff where it's not so good. my next door neighbors currentally ahve no car. they are very sweet wonderful people and i love them dearly. but i am their ride to everything. so i am taking care of me, shi and matt, john, and mason. and doing all this running around in my poor little car that doesnt really want to deal with all this driving shit anymore. but they have two horriable children with very bad ADD and its' just bad. Tuesday, the night that john and i were celebrating our two year anniversary, shi had a misscarriage. it SUCKED for her. and i was at the hospital till 3 in the morning on my anniversary. with two test to take the next day. yes i know i sound selfish and bitchy, but i took care of her and i would never let anything happen to the girl no matter what it interrupts, because she's one of my best friends. but i almost had a freaking fit today when i woke up going to get sims seasons and discovered my car was gone. i left them the keys. they were supposed to be back by 9:30 at the latest. and i got up at 11. yeah..i was mad.come to find out they had to take their kids to the dr to get medicine. thats fine..but..it's stuff like that all the time. and sometimes you just get really close to breaking.
next thing is, couples should not have roommates. mason has moved in with us. he needed a place and we needed a roommate. it's fine. but...he's annoying! he wont leave me alone and keep himself occupied. and he sleeps all day and stays up all night. it just...really bothers me. i'm the kind of person who wants space. alot of it more recentally, after my nearly nervous breakdown coming from the play. i just like space. so today when i come home and install my game, and john and matt were playing playstation, he comes in and sets in my popison chair and proceeds to talk to me. now, when johns not in my room no one is welcome. because that normally means that i need space. but URGH!
thank god last ngiht was okay. which is our actual anniversary. shi got mason to come over to their house and john and i spent a nice night by ourselves watching movies in each others arms.
anyways, thats all..i have to pee now.
lets start with something good shall we? my debts have been consolidated and two of them have been paid back in full. i'm currentally at work, at the coolest job ever. VINSTOCK! i work with hannah and blake. it's really nice when your boss's are personal friends of yours. i get paid in cash at the end of my shifts so it's like taking home tips every night. but big ones! i'm in school and my grades are respectable. nothing like the last time i was in murray. john offers me so much peace and security that i can relax enough to study without worrying about other things around me. also i'm in my own space, with a great new computer (i had two computers break on me in one week. my parents got me a new big one that wont break :) ) and a desk and a beautiful bed with satin sheets (because my boy loves me)and..it's perfect for studying and study breaks :).
okay now to the stuff where it's not so good. my next door neighbors currentally ahve no car. they are very sweet wonderful people and i love them dearly. but i am their ride to everything. so i am taking care of me, shi and matt, john, and mason. and doing all this running around in my poor little car that doesnt really want to deal with all this driving shit anymore. but they have two horriable children with very bad ADD and its' just bad. Tuesday, the night that john and i were celebrating our two year anniversary, shi had a misscarriage. it SUCKED for her. and i was at the hospital till 3 in the morning on my anniversary. with two test to take the next day. yes i know i sound selfish and bitchy, but i took care of her and i would never let anything happen to the girl no matter what it interrupts, because she's one of my best friends. but i almost had a freaking fit today when i woke up going to get sims seasons and discovered my car was gone. i left them the keys. they were supposed to be back by 9:30 at the latest. and i got up at 11. yeah..i was mad.come to find out they had to take their kids to the dr to get medicine. thats fine..but..it's stuff like that all the time. and sometimes you just get really close to breaking.
next thing is, couples should not have roommates. mason has moved in with us. he needed a place and we needed a roommate. it's fine. but...he's annoying! he wont leave me alone and keep himself occupied. and he sleeps all day and stays up all night. it just...really bothers me. i'm the kind of person who wants space. alot of it more recentally, after my nearly nervous breakdown coming from the play. i just like space. so today when i come home and install my game, and john and matt were playing playstation, he comes in and sets in my popison chair and proceeds to talk to me. now, when johns not in my room no one is welcome. because that normally means that i need space. but URGH!
thank god last ngiht was okay. which is our actual anniversary. shi got mason to come over to their house and john and i spent a nice night by ourselves watching movies in each others arms.
anyways, thats all..i have to pee now.