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I really want a best friend. Really badly.
A (true, real, honest to God) best friend won't ever treat you so bad that you scream to get away from them. If they do, they aren't real.
Family, however, is lucky enough to have opportunities to treat you so badly without suffering long term consequences for the most part, because you can never get away from them.
I want more than anything to move out of my house, get away from lincoln, my school, my family (dispite my love for them) and find a best friend. Someone who I can love freely and openly and actively and fight with and argue with, but know that they cherish what we have as much as i do. I want someone who doesn't cross the line on purpose to hurt. Where it doesn't even seem to be a possibility.
I am by no means ready to be on my own, but I feel like if I was right now, I would be able to blame myself and therefore in time begin to change and make life work good for me and then someday for those around me.
I cannot allow myself to depend on other people--especially those I end up wanting to trust automatically...instinct--like family
I want to live with someone like...my sister.
A (true, real, honest to God) best friend won't ever treat you so bad that you scream to get away from them. If they do, they aren't real.
Family, however, is lucky enough to have opportunities to treat you so badly without suffering long term consequences for the most part, because you can never get away from them.
I want more than anything to move out of my house, get away from lincoln, my school, my family (dispite my love for them) and find a best friend. Someone who I can love freely and openly and actively and fight with and argue with, but know that they cherish what we have as much as i do. I want someone who doesn't cross the line on purpose to hurt. Where it doesn't even seem to be a possibility.
I am by no means ready to be on my own, but I feel like if I was right now, I would be able to blame myself and therefore in time begin to change and make life work good for me and then someday for those around me.
I cannot allow myself to depend on other people--especially those I end up wanting to trust automatically...instinct--like family
I want to live with someone like...my sister.