I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar, maybe cross the country, become a rock star...
-Well, senior year has started and I've survived a whole week so far, so I'm proud of myself for that. I'm really excited to be a senior, but I don't think I'm ready for all of it's responsibilities yet.
-I've been in kind of a down mood lately and I've had a lot on my mind. I thought I was getting a lot better about not thinking about camp, but it just seems like everything has been reminding me of it recently. Yeah, I get phone calls and e-mails and I talk to some of them on AIM, but it's not the same as being with them. I was just talking to Morgan a little while ago and she was telling me about how Graeme and Kevin (two of our really close counselor friends) stayed the day and night with her at her house because they were on a day off. I wish I was in Long Island with her, then I would be only a few hours away from camp and I would be able to hang out with all of them.
-I've been doing really well about thinking less about him. I cut off e-mailing and calling. The only problem is, when I DO think about it...it hurts twice as much.
-I know I need to forget about all that stuff and focus on the present and things going on here, but this summer changed me. I can't forget about something that made such a difference in my life. I felt safe there, I felt wanted, I felt happier, and I felt....better. I wasn't hurting anymore and I wasn't being walked on. It's hard to make such a drastic change from there to here. I was hoping that with my new attitude and view things would be better. Don't get me wrong, it's 100 times better....but some of the bad things still aren't changing.
-I've been starting to feel kind of sick as well. A little bit of a common cold type sick...but also lots of stomach aches. I think I know what's causing them though.
-I got a job at Subway and when I applied I specifically asked for Tuesday, Thursday and Fridays off for the first few weeks. Guess when my first day of work is? Yeah....Thursday from 4-9. Hopefully they'll change it.
-There are some people in this world that are really just...amazing. I don't know what I did to deserve some people like you in my life. I don't think you understand how grateful I am for you.
-Thank you, Steve, for Monday night...that made me feel so much better. You're a really great friend and I hope that you'll let me do the same for you.
-That really bothers me and I don't know what to do about it. I hope it doesn't ruin anything...although I think it might.
ok bye
-ECS-
-I've been in kind of a down mood lately and I've had a lot on my mind. I thought I was getting a lot better about not thinking about camp, but it just seems like everything has been reminding me of it recently. Yeah, I get phone calls and e-mails and I talk to some of them on AIM, but it's not the same as being with them. I was just talking to Morgan a little while ago and she was telling me about how Graeme and Kevin (two of our really close counselor friends) stayed the day and night with her at her house because they were on a day off. I wish I was in Long Island with her, then I would be only a few hours away from camp and I would be able to hang out with all of them.
-I've been doing really well about thinking less about him. I cut off e-mailing and calling. The only problem is, when I DO think about it...it hurts twice as much.
-I know I need to forget about all that stuff and focus on the present and things going on here, but this summer changed me. I can't forget about something that made such a difference in my life. I felt safe there, I felt wanted, I felt happier, and I felt....better. I wasn't hurting anymore and I wasn't being walked on. It's hard to make such a drastic change from there to here. I was hoping that with my new attitude and view things would be better. Don't get me wrong, it's 100 times better....but some of the bad things still aren't changing.
-I've been starting to feel kind of sick as well. A little bit of a common cold type sick...but also lots of stomach aches. I think I know what's causing them though.
-I got a job at Subway and when I applied I specifically asked for Tuesday, Thursday and Fridays off for the first few weeks. Guess when my first day of work is? Yeah....Thursday from 4-9. Hopefully they'll change it.
-There are some people in this world that are really just...amazing. I don't know what I did to deserve some people like you in my life. I don't think you understand how grateful I am for you.
-Thank you, Steve, for Monday night...that made me feel so much better. You're a really great friend and I hope that you'll let me do the same for you.
-That really bothers me and I don't know what to do about it. I hope it doesn't ruin anything...although I think it might.
ok bye
-ECS-