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hi...
today was ....i dont kno...i never can explain my days...i can never give them a title...like everyone asks u how your day was...and i can never really explain them.....its always "good" or "normal" or "bad" and i kno thats not the right answer...theres always more to it then what is on the surface...and that doesnt just go for how your day was...its for everything in general....
im getting that damn sickness thats creeping through the school..its a pain in the ass...i feel all stuffed up and the sore throat is killing me...and although the cough isnt bad its annoying...
so yea felt like shit all day and i was tired and i had a math test that i really didnt give a fuck about...
going to the football game tonight...hanging out with bri, amanda, nicole, melissa and phil......but right now im having second thoughts about going...i mean i want to hang out with these people cause they r awesome friends and its always fun to hang out with them and i really want to c bri tonight...but on the other hand this sickness/disease isnt making me feel to good and the crowds that will be at this thing r kinda scaring me...but ill probably end up going cause i hate dissapointing people and i hate calling off going at the last moment and i hate ruining peoples plans...i just want to be the nice person that i am...
god i hate it when they fight...it makes me feel worthless like im just a pain in the ass to them...like if i was never born, their life would be happier...and i feel that way even when they r not fighting over me or with me...its just i want silence... i want people to be happy even when they r not...i hate arguing, i hate the loud voices that come with arguing and i hate people who just are mad all the time and the people who feel like they have to contradict everything...
i really dont kno what else to put cause im not good at expressing my feelings.. im the quiet one, the one who tells jokes every now and then.. im the one that goes along with almost anything...
theres no need for them to fight...and it seems like they argue over alot of things nowadays...i mean i definitely kno that they wont get a divorce, its just that me and my brother r growing up and theres always more stress when everyone is older and theres more things going on in everyones lives...were both teenagers now...
i can hear them through my locked door and my music....they're fighting over what were going to do for thanksgiving...my mom always wants to go somewhere when we get breaks from school...she always wants to go visit family... and my dad always argues that we could just stay home for once and have people over and that we dont need to spend money...
in my opinion i dont care...ill go along with anything that comes my way..as i said...
sometimes i think im the only sane one in my family...i mean im not trying to be selfish or anything but i never fight things...and i take my time at things...and im a quiet and self centered person most of the time..i like to be alone and in silence..but dont get me wrong i like to hang out with other people and i like to have a good time and i really value friends...its just in my family everyone has to have their way...and they r always rushing through dinner so they can go off and do their little things and lately, just to get away from everyone else...
i dont kno y im saying all this...i guess cause these things get to me and they affect me and my life...
but im grateful that i have these things, like a supportive family and good friends...thats all i really care about...
i just finished reading A Walk To Remember...its a great book..i havnt read anything like it b4...it really made me appreciate what i have...and i actually cried when reading the book...
i like slow soft songs..it gets me mellowed out and away from everything for a sec...if u get a chance...d/l the only living boy in new york by simon & garfunkel..its old school but good stuff...
i should get ready to go...
just.save.me.
hi...
today was ....i dont kno...i never can explain my days...i can never give them a title...like everyone asks u how your day was...and i can never really explain them.....its always "good" or "normal" or "bad" and i kno thats not the right answer...theres always more to it then what is on the surface...and that doesnt just go for how your day was...its for everything in general....
im getting that damn sickness thats creeping through the school..its a pain in the ass...i feel all stuffed up and the sore throat is killing me...and although the cough isnt bad its annoying...
so yea felt like shit all day and i was tired and i had a math test that i really didnt give a fuck about...
going to the football game tonight...hanging out with bri, amanda, nicole, melissa and phil......but right now im having second thoughts about going...i mean i want to hang out with these people cause they r awesome friends and its always fun to hang out with them and i really want to c bri tonight...but on the other hand this sickness/disease isnt making me feel to good and the crowds that will be at this thing r kinda scaring me...but ill probably end up going cause i hate dissapointing people and i hate calling off going at the last moment and i hate ruining peoples plans...i just want to be the nice person that i am...
god i hate it when they fight...it makes me feel worthless like im just a pain in the ass to them...like if i was never born, their life would be happier...and i feel that way even when they r not fighting over me or with me...its just i want silence... i want people to be happy even when they r not...i hate arguing, i hate the loud voices that come with arguing and i hate people who just are mad all the time and the people who feel like they have to contradict everything...
i really dont kno what else to put cause im not good at expressing my feelings.. im the quiet one, the one who tells jokes every now and then.. im the one that goes along with almost anything...
theres no need for them to fight...and it seems like they argue over alot of things nowadays...i mean i definitely kno that they wont get a divorce, its just that me and my brother r growing up and theres always more stress when everyone is older and theres more things going on in everyones lives...were both teenagers now...
i can hear them through my locked door and my music....they're fighting over what were going to do for thanksgiving...my mom always wants to go somewhere when we get breaks from school...she always wants to go visit family... and my dad always argues that we could just stay home for once and have people over and that we dont need to spend money...
in my opinion i dont care...ill go along with anything that comes my way..as i said...
sometimes i think im the only sane one in my family...i mean im not trying to be selfish or anything but i never fight things...and i take my time at things...and im a quiet and self centered person most of the time..i like to be alone and in silence..but dont get me wrong i like to hang out with other people and i like to have a good time and i really value friends...its just in my family everyone has to have their way...and they r always rushing through dinner so they can go off and do their little things and lately, just to get away from everyone else...
i dont kno y im saying all this...i guess cause these things get to me and they affect me and my life...
but im grateful that i have these things, like a supportive family and good friends...thats all i really care about...
i just finished reading A Walk To Remember...its a great book..i havnt read anything like it b4...it really made me appreciate what i have...and i actually cried when reading the book...
i like slow soft songs..it gets me mellowed out and away from everything for a sec...if u get a chance...d/l the only living boy in new york by simon & garfunkel..its old school but good stuff...
i should get ready to go...
just.save.me.