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sadness fills my heart right now....idont know wheather im comming or going....so much to think about now.....life shouldnt be this way!! people who are too stouborn to change just to make another person happy....people talking about you behind your back. all this stupid shit....im done w/ it...i want to just go away and be alone....w/ no one i know....i want to go a meet new people make new friends...see new things..but thats impossible...im stuck here in Va..w/ nothing....im alone..and i dont like the feeling. the people i Love or love me dont understand what im feeling...they just say they do and then think its All better....no its not going to be alight..its not going to get better. i need CHANGE in my life...or maybe i just need to settle down...i AM 21...my rents got married at 23...eek 2 more years...not enough time to have someone worthy enough of marrying me...i guess...sure there is someone i wanna marry...but hes not changing and its making it harder on me to make decisions..i <3 him...but i dont know if im goint to be happy for the rest of my life...i try to change to please him...no...doesnt work...i want to help him...he doesnt want the help...its hard....i dont know what to do....i hate being this way.....ugh...i have to go to work....now my day is shot......Im dead inside....