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i feel so fucking broken. not emotionally broken, exactly. maybe more like defunct. like my brain really just doesn't work anymore. like i can't hand in papers on time anymore. or even less than several days late. like i open up word and then feel anxious and blank and i don't understand how i got through high school. i can't think anymore. i don't understand anything. i can't put words together in sentences. i'm just like paralyzed by a total lack of anything to say. i'm so not cut out for this college thing. i don't want to take more time off because it's always going to fucking suck and i don't feel like postponing it any more and i just want to be done. but jeez i just don't even know sometimes how i am going to make it through this semester, lately. my brain is just completely dead.