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I haven't posted in a while...not hard to imagine why considering that the only people that ever post on my Friends list are people I don't talk to anymore...but I figure this is for my own personal use than for anyone else.
I'm still working at Target. They're opening a new store in a few weeks that's close by...actually I live closer to it, so I've been working over there some. The truth to that though...they're disorganized, and their bosses are tools. My bosses are pretty damn good...and a large part of that seems to be that they dont coddle us. Plus, we generally feel we have free reign to talk about whatever we want...and we do at great lengths. Other stores...they dont really have that. We spent a while on saturday at the new store trying to get other people to talk, but it was almost exclusively us.
My parents are back in town...just 2 more weeks. I haven't had the house to myself...probably since about my last post. My parents visited, then my sister visited, now they are again. I dont like it...I like not caring if my place is a pig sty...I actually end up doing alot more cleaning when that happens.
I still have just a handful of friends, and no relationship...the only prospect was a girl that was really short...but for whatever reason, she's not interested or ready from her last break up or whatever...so basically, nothings happening. That's one thing that bugs me...I dont meet people as often as I'd like. Sure, we get customers bugging us, etc, and I go to different stores every now and then, and we hire new people sometimes...but how often do I actually meet people? If I'm hanging out with Joe and Jerrod, all they really want to do is hang out and play Rock Band. Joe seems to be exceedingly happy with his life (living in his parents basement while they're out of the country...what's the likelihood of that?). He never leaves his house except to go play video games...he's never had a gf, etc.
Do I want a gf? I dunno...I know I should. It certainly doesn't help that I'm getting to the age where everyone is getting married (glares at Laura). She's not the only one...Pauls getting married soon...My cousin got married this summer. My boss at work got married to a complete douche bag...and with the exception of Joe, all of my friends (that I still talk to at least) are in long term serious committed relationships.
Most the time I'm happy with being alone...but I want to feel like someone really gives a shit again. The truth is, though...that even when people say they're here for me, I hear "for the next few weeks, maybe months if you're lucky". I dont believe that anyone's going to stay. I dont really feel that it's particularly "my fault" so much as that I just naturally rub people the wrong way. Granted, I know I'm an asshole, and maybe I push people away, and belittle them and so on and so forth...but even if I didn't do all that (like when I was a kid) people still wouldn't like me (like when I was a kid)
I'm still working at Target. They're opening a new store in a few weeks that's close by...actually I live closer to it, so I've been working over there some. The truth to that though...they're disorganized, and their bosses are tools. My bosses are pretty damn good...and a large part of that seems to be that they dont coddle us. Plus, we generally feel we have free reign to talk about whatever we want...and we do at great lengths. Other stores...they dont really have that. We spent a while on saturday at the new store trying to get other people to talk, but it was almost exclusively us.
My parents are back in town...just 2 more weeks. I haven't had the house to myself...probably since about my last post. My parents visited, then my sister visited, now they are again. I dont like it...I like not caring if my place is a pig sty...I actually end up doing alot more cleaning when that happens.
I still have just a handful of friends, and no relationship...the only prospect was a girl that was really short...but for whatever reason, she's not interested or ready from her last break up or whatever...so basically, nothings happening. That's one thing that bugs me...I dont meet people as often as I'd like. Sure, we get customers bugging us, etc, and I go to different stores every now and then, and we hire new people sometimes...but how often do I actually meet people? If I'm hanging out with Joe and Jerrod, all they really want to do is hang out and play Rock Band. Joe seems to be exceedingly happy with his life (living in his parents basement while they're out of the country...what's the likelihood of that?). He never leaves his house except to go play video games...he's never had a gf, etc.
Do I want a gf? I dunno...I know I should. It certainly doesn't help that I'm getting to the age where everyone is getting married (glares at Laura). She's not the only one...Pauls getting married soon...My cousin got married this summer. My boss at work got married to a complete douche bag...and with the exception of Joe, all of my friends (that I still talk to at least) are in long term serious committed relationships.
Most the time I'm happy with being alone...but I want to feel like someone really gives a shit again. The truth is, though...that even when people say they're here for me, I hear "for the next few weeks, maybe months if you're lucky". I dont believe that anyone's going to stay. I dont really feel that it's particularly "my fault" so much as that I just naturally rub people the wrong way. Granted, I know I'm an asshole, and maybe I push people away, and belittle them and so on and so forth...but even if I didn't do all that (like when I was a kid) people still wouldn't like me (like when I was a kid)