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It's getting harder now to eat very little. In the beginning I had ruled out snacking and anything that wasn't low-calories, but I've been ignoring that sometimes. I think mostly because I've lost focus on it. I've been so distracted at the prospect of going home to visit friends and family this weekend. Last christmas when we got back from visiting is when I actually started my weight loss goals and I started dieting a little bit. So maybe coming home this time will kickstart me again.
I've even been getting positive feedback from the boyfriend. He's been calling me his skinny little girlfriend, and running his hands over my hipbones when he thinks I'm not paying attention. If I look down at his hands he'll move them to my legs or something. But I know what he's doing, and I like it. You'd think this would renew my determination but I guess I work better with negative criticism. I get too comfortable when I feel happy about myself.
I just really really do not need to gain anything in this week before I go home, and also when I get that tattoo on Friday I won't be able to work out and do crunches for a while since it'll be on my side and I don't want to fuck it up. I really should be cracking down NOW.
I've even been getting positive feedback from the boyfriend. He's been calling me his skinny little girlfriend, and running his hands over my hipbones when he thinks I'm not paying attention. If I look down at his hands he'll move them to my legs or something. But I know what he's doing, and I like it. You'd think this would renew my determination but I guess I work better with negative criticism. I get too comfortable when I feel happy about myself.
I just really really do not need to gain anything in this week before I go home, and also when I get that tattoo on Friday I won't be able to work out and do crunches for a while since it'll be on my side and I don't want to fuck it up. I really should be cracking down NOW.