all my faces
I have an e-mail in my file i went back to look at it just now because i needed something to make me smile. He asked, "why don't you smile, you always seem so sad" i reply i have no reason and that's how this story began. I wasn't always this way. I used to have a face that i kept hanging by the door i would slip it on and step outside to start pretending that i'm a "normal" happy girl but in the end it all rolls back to the pretending part. I have a face for every season, i can be whatever mood fits in. funny, happy, goofy, angry, horrified, happy, sad all rolled up into face formations and they believe it all. One day i stopped caring what everyone thought. I packed up the faces into a little tiny box, hid them away i wouldn't take them out again not even for a rainy day. I found out that i don't have to pretend anymore the faces will come when that mood is near. My funny face comes out to play when my friends who are twins come visit me. Today when i saw him i put my sad face back on because it was then that i realized that he was too far gone. I knew it would hurt when i had to move away so i did the "easy" thing and i walked away. Moody you stood there and talked to me through the rain. There's a lot more there between the lines everything isn't so cut and dry it's hard to explain but baby i'll try. riot and moody you've saved me in a way that even to me can't be explained. Thank you girls