hmph...
i now have the perfect girl in my life. she is wonderful in ways i never thought another person could be. she has the most wonderful smile, and at one point actually thought me and my friends were "cool." we spend so much time together i knew i was going to happen. we go to all the same clubs. we go to movies together. (she has bad taste in movies. so few people have good taste.) but... sarah is gay.
we all knew it would happen, even me. i have joked about it for months. but last night i realized it was too late. i am falling for a lesbian. what makes it worse is she figured it out the same moment i did. we were at her car, talking about girls, as is our custom, when i started pressing her about who was in her scopes this week. after a long interrogation she said, "oh joe you know it has been you." this was the most exciting second i have had in a long time. i realized then that that is truly what i wanted to hear. i wanted to hear it so bad i was going to explode. and this surprised me. i thought it was just because she is beautiful. i didn't know i really liked her.
"REALLY?" i reply in the most eager tone possible.
then the second was over. i almost cried when i remembered that she was gay. and then i knew she was joking. deep down i was still hoping that she was going through a hole sexuality problem. but i knew better. not sarah. sarah is really a lesbian. now i know how i feel and so does she.
i tried to play it cool for the next few minutes. i told her not to play games with me and i changed the subject. we talked for a few and we said our good night. then as i was walking away she said, "i am sorry that i am gay joe."
i had nothing to say to that. i just walked away. god i am an ass. being gay is hard enough. but now she has to feel bad about this. not to mention, i have her pity now.
i dont think this will make things weird for her. just me. i mean what does she care if i want to be with her.
talk about hard to reach. there is no way i could get this girl. god i am dumb.
we all knew it would happen, even me. i have joked about it for months. but last night i realized it was too late. i am falling for a lesbian. what makes it worse is she figured it out the same moment i did. we were at her car, talking about girls, as is our custom, when i started pressing her about who was in her scopes this week. after a long interrogation she said, "oh joe you know it has been you." this was the most exciting second i have had in a long time. i realized then that that is truly what i wanted to hear. i wanted to hear it so bad i was going to explode. and this surprised me. i thought it was just because she is beautiful. i didn't know i really liked her.
"REALLY?" i reply in the most eager tone possible.
then the second was over. i almost cried when i remembered that she was gay. and then i knew she was joking. deep down i was still hoping that she was going through a hole sexuality problem. but i knew better. not sarah. sarah is really a lesbian. now i know how i feel and so does she.
i tried to play it cool for the next few minutes. i told her not to play games with me and i changed the subject. we talked for a few and we said our good night. then as i was walking away she said, "i am sorry that i am gay joe."
i had nothing to say to that. i just walked away. god i am an ass. being gay is hard enough. but now she has to feel bad about this. not to mention, i have her pity now.
i dont think this will make things weird for her. just me. i mean what does she care if i want to be with her.
talk about hard to reach. there is no way i could get this girl. god i am dumb.