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Well it really just hit me. No more high school. :/
It really makes me sad. You know how at the end of the summer, when laying around and doing nothing is boring to you, and you actually get a little bit excited for the new school year to begin? You get new classes, meet new people.
I really miss my 3rd period french class, that was the best. And german, and newspaper.
Look at my life. Last year I was getting home from volunteering at a church camp. Now I live with my boyfriend and party and I'm just completely different and I kind of miss last year before all of this sometimes.
It's weird, I'm not innocent at all anymore. I'm so used to being innocent and now I'm not. I miss being close with my family and God.
But I'm also having a lot of fun right now. I would never have any of the friends I have now if I still had the same mindset as I did before.
I get to go to Disney World with my family tomorrow, I'm really looking forward to it. At first I wasn't but now I totally am, I'm excited. I miss them a lot. I actually started crying while I typed that up, I still kind of am. I just don't know who I am anymore.
And I hate it when people say this is all Jarrod's fault. Yeah, if I never met him I would of never of started smoking pot or drinking, etc but I love him so much and he never pressured me to do anything. If anything, he didn't want me to start smoking but I really wanted to try it and see how it felt to me and I like it. If I never met him, I would never be taking any risks or living how I really wanted to live. Despite the fact that I was a more secure person last year, it was so incredibly monotonous and I wanted my life to be more exciting, I want to experience everything to make sure of what I want.
I know that in a few years I'm going to go back to how I was before. I want to go to church again regularly, get married and have a family. I think it would be cool to adopt.
Okay I know this is going to sound really funny after all of that but I'm really excited because I bought my first bong today and it's so fucking nice. It's huge! A bunch of people came over and we smoked out of it and it was great. After this Jarrod and I are going to smoke a lot by ourselves.
Last night I had a lot of fun! I went to this little party thing at Mazetti's. They just bought this really great 4 hose hookah and he also had passion-fruit flavored shisha, and lemon and peach and all this other stuff. Dan introduced me to Blue Moon with orange in it, it's so good which is weird because I normally hate beer. Danielle made the best blueberry muffins I have EVER tasted. Then we played smoking games and I bought a dub.
I'm excitedddd, Disney World tomorrow!
It really makes me sad. You know how at the end of the summer, when laying around and doing nothing is boring to you, and you actually get a little bit excited for the new school year to begin? You get new classes, meet new people.
I really miss my 3rd period french class, that was the best. And german, and newspaper.
Look at my life. Last year I was getting home from volunteering at a church camp. Now I live with my boyfriend and party and I'm just completely different and I kind of miss last year before all of this sometimes.
It's weird, I'm not innocent at all anymore. I'm so used to being innocent and now I'm not. I miss being close with my family and God.
But I'm also having a lot of fun right now. I would never have any of the friends I have now if I still had the same mindset as I did before.
I get to go to Disney World with my family tomorrow, I'm really looking forward to it. At first I wasn't but now I totally am, I'm excited. I miss them a lot. I actually started crying while I typed that up, I still kind of am. I just don't know who I am anymore.
And I hate it when people say this is all Jarrod's fault. Yeah, if I never met him I would of never of started smoking pot or drinking, etc but I love him so much and he never pressured me to do anything. If anything, he didn't want me to start smoking but I really wanted to try it and see how it felt to me and I like it. If I never met him, I would never be taking any risks or living how I really wanted to live. Despite the fact that I was a more secure person last year, it was so incredibly monotonous and I wanted my life to be more exciting, I want to experience everything to make sure of what I want.
I know that in a few years I'm going to go back to how I was before. I want to go to church again regularly, get married and have a family. I think it would be cool to adopt.
Okay I know this is going to sound really funny after all of that but I'm really excited because I bought my first bong today and it's so fucking nice. It's huge! A bunch of people came over and we smoked out of it and it was great. After this Jarrod and I are going to smoke a lot by ourselves.
Last night I had a lot of fun! I went to this little party thing at Mazetti's. They just bought this really great 4 hose hookah and he also had passion-fruit flavored shisha, and lemon and peach and all this other stuff. Dan introduced me to Blue Moon with orange in it, it's so good which is weird because I normally hate beer. Danielle made the best blueberry muffins I have EVER tasted. Then we played smoking games and I bought a dub.
I'm excitedddd, Disney World tomorrow!