today, wednesday.
I’m starting to wonder if anything that I have ever wanted has “gone my way.” Whenever I need something to turn around or go well or for the better, there is always a complication, something that happens, that prevents the thing I need. But I guess that when that complication happens, I just think of it as “getting worse before it gets better.” But then it gets even more “worse before it gets better,” and so on and so on until the proposal or thing or opportunity is completely dead.
I don’t know why I didn’t blame myself before.
On a lighter note:
- I finally brought my math grade up to an A- (it was a C- before…)! I finally understand the hell that is math.
I’m going to the gym today [palatine park district] after school…. With my mom. Heh. I just want to exercise more, for my health, my happiness. I wish I could go somewhere better, but my mom doesn’t want to pay for a member ship at the Buehler or anywhere else. It’s freaking expensive. I’d have to pay for it myself if I really wanted it that bad… which I do. And I don’t have 25 extra dollars lying around every month that I can use. I don’t even have 1 extra dollar lying around every month.
So I trekked over to the Lobby of Hobbies yesterday, and got a bunch of icing tips and bags and cake-decorating accessories. I really wanted to learn how to make those icing flowers and pretty borders and decorations, and so now I will finally get to. Mmmmm, icing. I’m going to make a wedding cake, I am. For no reason.
[sent from god]
I don’t know why I didn’t blame myself before.
On a lighter note:
- I finally brought my math grade up to an A- (it was a C- before…)! I finally understand the hell that is math.
I’m going to the gym today [palatine park district] after school…. With my mom. Heh. I just want to exercise more, for my health, my happiness. I wish I could go somewhere better, but my mom doesn’t want to pay for a member ship at the Buehler or anywhere else. It’s freaking expensive. I’d have to pay for it myself if I really wanted it that bad… which I do. And I don’t have 25 extra dollars lying around every month that I can use. I don’t even have 1 extra dollar lying around every month.
So I trekked over to the Lobby of Hobbies yesterday, and got a bunch of icing tips and bags and cake-decorating accessories. I really wanted to learn how to make those icing flowers and pretty borders and decorations, and so now I will finally get to. Mmmmm, icing. I’m going to make a wedding cake, I am. For no reason.
[sent from god]