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yes i know its been forever. dealing with CRAP lately....no seriously sophia shits ALOT and i get her every sunday now.
yes i know
but honestly there have been some things that have pissed me off. one individual i would like to talk to...she knows who she is. the other individual....i just hafta wait and see what happens. i hope it all goes in my favor is all i hafta say about that.
worked pattys day bouncin at kildares. it was awesome
my boy graham has proved to be an amazing distraction. between kildares friday and saturday and whiskey tango tuesday the scottish drinking team is getting rather popular. we have fans...and they get so upset when we DONT wear our kilts. cant disappoint the fans y'know.
but despite the shiny happy front ive been puttin up.....
im quite miserable. this is noones fault but my own.
either im failing to do things because of past decisions or something else, its still a repurcussion of something that I have done. i can live with that. just try harder y'know?
like today i slept in...now im updating my journal. i am SUCH a procrastinator.but after this quickie shower then off to jacksonville rd to look for a warehouse job. gotta pay more than the theatre right?
unfortunately, and i know at least ONE person that can attest to this, my record gets in the way of me getting jobs where they do background checks. its really quite ignunt. but i should stop procrastinating on getting that expunged, finally go to the probation office and find out what can be done.
i am very sick of all the springtime loveydovey crap thats spreading through the streets like a wildfire thats all horny and mating with other wildfires. i think im gonna become a monk. thats right.
i think part of the problem is that i know what i want.....and thats presently unattainable....stupid married guy.... and i refuse to settle. and partly because if i want to improve my looks i should wear a bag over my head. yes. i am quite hideous. hmmm....maybe a third reason is confidence....i certainly lack that....
but yeah lovedovey crap is giving me the irritable bowel syndrome.
i dunno.....
hey BEST FRIEND....if ya read this..... i think we made easy targets for eachother, there have been emotional casualties on both sides.... and i said some things that were totally unnecessary and im sorry about that. really. and i DO appreciate everything youve done for me. more than you might think.i owe alot of things to you. (least of which is that i still have a job coz i could get there again thanks to you)so lets talk, its been too long anyways.
there are things that must be done....and im sick of being scared to do them.
theres two women in my life that make me want to be a better man, one's my daughter.... and the other.... well... shes dealin with shit right now (stupid married guy) but she knows that i wont settle for anything less than her. so send some good vibes out to hackensack if ya can. shell need it
bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzt
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yes i know its been forever. dealing with CRAP lately....no seriously sophia shits ALOT and i get her every sunday now.
yes i know
but honestly there have been some things that have pissed me off. one individual i would like to talk to...she knows who she is. the other individual....i just hafta wait and see what happens. i hope it all goes in my favor is all i hafta say about that.
worked pattys day bouncin at kildares. it was awesome
my boy graham has proved to be an amazing distraction. between kildares friday and saturday and whiskey tango tuesday the scottish drinking team is getting rather popular. we have fans...and they get so upset when we DONT wear our kilts. cant disappoint the fans y'know.
but despite the shiny happy front ive been puttin up.....
im quite miserable. this is noones fault but my own.
either im failing to do things because of past decisions or something else, its still a repurcussion of something that I have done. i can live with that. just try harder y'know?
like today i slept in...now im updating my journal. i am SUCH a procrastinator.but after this quickie shower then off to jacksonville rd to look for a warehouse job. gotta pay more than the theatre right?
unfortunately, and i know at least ONE person that can attest to this, my record gets in the way of me getting jobs where they do background checks. its really quite ignunt. but i should stop procrastinating on getting that expunged, finally go to the probation office and find out what can be done.
i am very sick of all the springtime loveydovey crap thats spreading through the streets like a wildfire thats all horny and mating with other wildfires. i think im gonna become a monk. thats right.
i think part of the problem is that i know what i want.....and thats presently unattainable....stupid married guy.... and i refuse to settle. and partly because if i want to improve my looks i should wear a bag over my head. yes. i am quite hideous. hmmm....maybe a third reason is confidence....i certainly lack that....
but yeah lovedovey crap is giving me the irritable bowel syndrome.
i dunno.....
hey BEST FRIEND....if ya read this..... i think we made easy targets for eachother, there have been emotional casualties on both sides.... and i said some things that were totally unnecessary and im sorry about that. really. and i DO appreciate everything youve done for me. more than you might think.i owe alot of things to you. (least of which is that i still have a job coz i could get there again thanks to you)so lets talk, its been too long anyways.
there are things that must be done....and im sick of being scared to do them.
theres two women in my life that make me want to be a better man, one's my daughter.... and the other.... well... shes dealin with shit right now (stupid married guy) but she knows that i wont settle for anything less than her. so send some good vibes out to hackensack if ya can. shell need it
bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzt
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