Hi, for those that may or may not know me.. my real name is Leaha. I'm divorced and I live in GA, I moved to Ga to live with my best friend tisha or Cinderella74. I also moved to GA to be closer to my exboyfriend Glenn Book_of_pain . He and I met on livejournal, we would have had our one year anniversery on April 29th, that was the first time I told him that I loved him. He had been expressing his feelings for me for awhile and I had fallen in love with who I thought he was, the emails, the phone calls It was overwhelming and still until we had broken up we spent over 3000 minutes every month on the phone together. I saw him once every 6 to 8 weeks and since he was struggling to raise his 2 childern who's mother had abandoned the family when they were 1 I usually paid for everything, the hotel rooms, the dinners whatever we needed. It has been a struggle, Glenn has kept me from his childrens lives for fear of damaging them, since there mother was so "unstable" and they had never seen either parent date. I hung on as long as I could, but the truth is that I couldn't do it anymore .. the shady parts of our relationship overwhelmed me. I have spent the last month trying to break it off, but the constant phone calls and begging kept my heart in the relationship. I moved last week, from Atlanta to Warner Robins, putting me 5 hours away from him not the 3 from Atlanta. The last conversation we had was on last Thursday, the last words I heard him say were "shit hold on". His phone has been off ever since, today I called his mothers house out of sheer need to know that he was ok. His wife answered, not his exwife, his wife. She is a very nice person who was more than happy to fill in all the wholes that his excusses had left me with. Turns out he has 3 beautiful kids, 8yr old twin girls and a 3 year old son a son I knew nothing about. She's also his second wife, the first I knew nothing about. He's 44 in August, not 37 and the reason I haven't heard from him is because he's in jail. On thursday of last week he hit two cars while driving and fled the scene. He was arrested for DUI, he's a drug addict and he and his wife have litteraly been together since I was 16years old. I know there are quite a few people who read this journal some I'm sure will read this thinking .. serves her right, for one reason or another. I don't care, I don't care how you feel about me, or even how you feel about him. But the thing is It's out there now and I'm free, I'm free of the lies, the worry and I'm working my way through the hurt. I have been used in my life, like most people but never to this degree. This really is just the tip of the iceburg, but I don't have the heart to suffer through anymore than this right now. Comment if you want, say whatever you want .. Like I said I don't care how you feel about either me or him. All I know is I'm free.
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