just venting

[spooky04]

Yeah, so im a bit pissed right now. Just thinking about a few things and well i need to vent them out a bit. I am extremly pissed at the fact that my work is FUCKING GAY and theres so many assholes that work there! If everyone would just keep their attitude and negativity to themselves, then i think that it would be a much more friendlier place to work. People know that i am not in the best of moods right now, as i have a lot of stuff going on and i get very i mean VERY emotional a bit easier now, so just shut the fuck up and do your damn job! Or should i say, get off your damn cell phone and work like everyone else does! Anyways, and also im getting irritated by the fact that even though im 21 now, doesn't mean that i can go out and "party" a lot like some other can. It's not all about just having fun, it's also money and and the fact that im not gonna pushed into doing something that i dont feel like doing or get behind the wheel. I'm not that stupid. Everyone says, "you should come here, or go there tonight"...and blah blah blah. IT'S MONEY, HELLO!!!! If you wanna waste a whole freaking pay check on drinks, than be my guest, but unlike others theres more important things. I'm not saying that i wouldnt drink, but im just saying that i dont feel like going to the bars like every single day or close to it. It gets boring after awhile, and im not gonna let it control me or my life! I dont give a shit wheather you think im cute when i drink or what not, i care that im not gonna let it control my life. Do you see where i am going with this????.....I do miss singing very much, but if i feel like going somewhere than i will. I cant make everybody happy by being every where at once, but if i wanna go somewhere than i will. So, as you can tell im just frustrated that theres people who dont care about how others feel, and theres some who do. And, just accept that if i say no to going somewhere it's most likely 'cause i dont have money or just dont feel like going. I do like going out, but with school around the corner, thats also important to me too.

I guess just the way i've been feeling, emotional wise, i just need to vent. This is NOT aimed towards anyone, im just irritated.