Measured smiles.
I don't know if I have ever been truly happy before. I think, actually, that I was... twice. That's kinda hard to think about. In all my years, I may have experienced actual 100% happiness 2 whole times. Oh, well, I suppose that is more than some get. Its just interesting to think about the times when you THINK you're happy, and then you look back and.... you totally weren't. Something was missing, but you had no idea what. Hell, you still might not know what, you just know that it wasn't there... that SOMETHING was holding you back from 100% pure undiluted rapture. At any rate, I think I'm pretty much the happiest I have ever been now. I don't know if humans have the capacity naturally to be 100% happy, no matter what the Jesus slingers and the Bible thumpers say. I honestly think that true happiness cannot be had and what we must strive to achieve is the closest thing we can get to it, be it 86% or 95% or whatever. We must try our damndest to get as happy as we can... because really, there's a lot of shit out there to be UNhappy about. But, yeah, I guess you could have done without that diatribe, eh? What I'm just saying there is that yay, I'm a happy girl.