Reflections
I just wanted to sit and remember the lonely times I had in Ravenna, when I would drive to the sheesha and drive back in solitude, quietness. I really miss that time. I think I have to move out, I like to be alone. I feel as if I can't do anything if I'm at home, I'm not sure why, but I am. I think it comes down to one part, at least, being that I'm ashamed to still be playing video games, or couldn't be caught dead watching anime (the few I want to even watch).
I should add that over the last week I've come to the realization that Pinar isn't the one for me, and I'm not the one for her, either. I have to learn to let go, but just seeing her name makes me sad because I really do like her.
I don't know what to do except watch the last episode of Dahmer (she loved it) and smoke this cigarette from my window. On an up note, 3 and half day this week! Can't wait for payday, that's in a few days. And we already know what I'll be buying ;)
p.s. I don't want to drag it out, but maybe get drop off some roses or something in front of her apartment would melt the ice? She has shown that for 2 weeks she can be normal. I don't know, even if it doesn't work out, I just wanna be with her.