Foe Hammer
My last update was so long ago, as usual. I just spent 45 minutes or so walking around outside thinking about the good old hot summers in Ohio. Especially when he would either be at his friends, and I would be in his room playing Marathon on the old Performa 550 or whatever number it was. Those days were just so sweet, getting those cold pops to drink from the fridge...maybe some ice cream we got from Aldi, stuff like that. I didn't know it at the time of course, but those games, that company (Bungie) would help anchor me to my past.
What brought about these thoughts? I recently bought Halo the Master Chief Collection on PC (Steam). I was playing Halo Reach (First game released of the set) and noticed that Halo 1 was just released a few days earlier, so I started downloading it, which led me to look up Marathon references in Halo, which got me remembering the good old days.
I wonder how similar I am to 13 or 14 year old me, so innocent of the world's evils back then? I wish I didn't understand the world and it's greed so well. Does it matter that I understand (or think I understand) the problems and causes of these problems? Am I going to make a change? The best I can do is boycott some companies and make them lose a mote of profit that is inconsequential.
I decided, like I often do, to make a real change in my life. I may be a dumbass, I may be doing all the wrong things it seems, but the least I can do is take care of my self, my mind, my body, and save up money for the "black day". Sure, I can "enjoy" my money now, but how long is that going to last? How long can I honestly keep living paycheck to paycheck, with nothing to show for it? I don't even have a wardrobe, and part of the problem is I spend too much money eating fast food. I spend too much money joining gyms and not going. Then I wonder why I have so much time to be bored, so I spend it going out to eat.
For just half a year if I saved up an emergency fund, it would be great. Heck, 4 months. 4 months of not smoking, spending 300 kd (10kd a day! Plenty!) and eating somewhat decently. And of course, going to the gym. Or walking. Or swimming.
I'm 37 now. It took me long enough, but I'm humbled. I don't need a new car, nor a "nice" used one. I'm fine with the Galant. My clothes? Training pants and sweatpants. Plain shirts. Yeah, I splurged on my PC, but it's not like I'll need to upgrade it anytime soon.
Being a loner has it's benefits, and I think I'm gonna do that again soon. I met someone special (Pinar) and that was short and sweet. I won't find like her again. I don't know why, but I think meeting her was important in my life. It didn't last long at all, but I think there is a lesson to be learned there. I hope I learn it.
I think...I think it's going to be a great summer.
What brought about these thoughts? I recently bought Halo the Master Chief Collection on PC (Steam). I was playing Halo Reach (First game released of the set) and noticed that Halo 1 was just released a few days earlier, so I started downloading it, which led me to look up Marathon references in Halo, which got me remembering the good old days.
I wonder how similar I am to 13 or 14 year old me, so innocent of the world's evils back then? I wish I didn't understand the world and it's greed so well. Does it matter that I understand (or think I understand) the problems and causes of these problems? Am I going to make a change? The best I can do is boycott some companies and make them lose a mote of profit that is inconsequential.
I decided, like I often do, to make a real change in my life. I may be a dumbass, I may be doing all the wrong things it seems, but the least I can do is take care of my self, my mind, my body, and save up money for the "black day". Sure, I can "enjoy" my money now, but how long is that going to last? How long can I honestly keep living paycheck to paycheck, with nothing to show for it? I don't even have a wardrobe, and part of the problem is I spend too much money eating fast food. I spend too much money joining gyms and not going. Then I wonder why I have so much time to be bored, so I spend it going out to eat.
For just half a year if I saved up an emergency fund, it would be great. Heck, 4 months. 4 months of not smoking, spending 300 kd (10kd a day! Plenty!) and eating somewhat decently. And of course, going to the gym. Or walking. Or swimming.
I'm 37 now. It took me long enough, but I'm humbled. I don't need a new car, nor a "nice" used one. I'm fine with the Galant. My clothes? Training pants and sweatpants. Plain shirts. Yeah, I splurged on my PC, but it's not like I'll need to upgrade it anytime soon.
Being a loner has it's benefits, and I think I'm gonna do that again soon. I met someone special (Pinar) and that was short and sweet. I won't find like her again. I don't know why, but I think meeting her was important in my life. It didn't last long at all, but I think there is a lesson to be learned there. I hope I learn it.
I think...I think it's going to be a great summer.