I don't know
I don't even know the last time I posted. I'm sitting here and it's 4 am. I'm so thankful that as bad as my life seems to be, it's totally not bad at all relatively. So what if I'm not making any real progress towards even the most basic of financial independence, at my age? I'm just glad that my family is all right, my health is good (hasn't been this good since I stopped being a teacher!) with the exception of my back, but so what that pain comes and goes.
I'm seriously thinking of moving to Tokyo if possible to teach. Of course, the threat of nuclear war is a scary prospect. A regular war I wouldn't be worried, but NUCLEAR?! That's absolutely horrifying.
I do, however, believe that God has a plan for all of us. Doesn't matter if I'm here or there, if I'm gonna die, it could be many many things that do me in. So, with those thoughts in mind, I guess I just need to try my best to do whatever it is that I need to do. In the worst case, if shit starts hitting the fan, I can just dip and come back to Kuwait on the next flight, assuming that Tokyo isn't bombed to oblivion without so much as saber rattling.
In other news, I'm pretty sure my turtle is dying. I haven't fed it in maybe a week now, and it refuses to eat anything but shrimp. If it's gonna be so damn picky then fuck it. That said, I may try to buy it some food tomorrow.
As for my personal life, well, there is nothing to speak of really. Same boring routine as it's been since I got fired : sleep at dawn or 9 am, wake up at 2 - 5, starbucks if I have money, then back home. Sometimes I hang out with some cousins, maybe my Generals crew, but usually not.
I think I'm going to buy Persona 5 tomorrow if I get paid. Or, I may wait till the end of the week just to make sure, but I think I should buy it so I can stay at home more or at least have something different to do.
I'm back on to Rise of the Reds again, it's a good time killer. Facing the AI is just boring, cuz it's way too fast for me to use anything but turtle -> steamroll tactics. I can literally send a giant army and take out half it's buildings, take a moment to do something elsewhere on the map, and within 40 seconds it'll have all of its buildings rebuilt, at the exact same places.
I'm too lazy to start or finish any of my other games. I need to fix that somehow. I need to watch my movies and delete them. I need to finish up the last 4 seasons of entourage. There's a backlog of games that would take me a few months with dedication to finish, but honestly I just do not care.
I've known this since I finished high school : if I have a lot of stuff to do, I can do it and start enjoying the time I have for games. I remember when I would go to school and then to work, get home at 10, and play for 30 minutes or something of Marvel vs SNK on Xbox live and then sleep and do it all over again.
I used to wanna live on my own, but I don't think I'll ever live on my own anymore. I don't even care. Let me have a year, in the states, or even japan, and that's not even a wish at this point. I'll be happy with going to Thailand or wherevers cheap for a month and just doing my thing for a few weeks alone. I guess most guys would wanna go to have girls and drinks and whatever, me I just wanna relax.
I wanna get on this poetry recital thing, but really, if I'm broke as usual, I don't even wanna do that, because I'll look like a bum with the same clothes that I've been wearing for 2 years now. Same pants, same shirts, except half I can't wear cuz I'm still overweight. It's taking one or two big steps forward, just to go back to square one.
But for me, square one isn't a horrible place to be at all. I've got my family, my health, and so far, that's enough.
God bless me and my family.
I'm seriously thinking of moving to Tokyo if possible to teach. Of course, the threat of nuclear war is a scary prospect. A regular war I wouldn't be worried, but NUCLEAR?! That's absolutely horrifying.
I do, however, believe that God has a plan for all of us. Doesn't matter if I'm here or there, if I'm gonna die, it could be many many things that do me in. So, with those thoughts in mind, I guess I just need to try my best to do whatever it is that I need to do. In the worst case, if shit starts hitting the fan, I can just dip and come back to Kuwait on the next flight, assuming that Tokyo isn't bombed to oblivion without so much as saber rattling.
In other news, I'm pretty sure my turtle is dying. I haven't fed it in maybe a week now, and it refuses to eat anything but shrimp. If it's gonna be so damn picky then fuck it. That said, I may try to buy it some food tomorrow.
As for my personal life, well, there is nothing to speak of really. Same boring routine as it's been since I got fired : sleep at dawn or 9 am, wake up at 2 - 5, starbucks if I have money, then back home. Sometimes I hang out with some cousins, maybe my Generals crew, but usually not.
I think I'm going to buy Persona 5 tomorrow if I get paid. Or, I may wait till the end of the week just to make sure, but I think I should buy it so I can stay at home more or at least have something different to do.
I'm back on to Rise of the Reds again, it's a good time killer. Facing the AI is just boring, cuz it's way too fast for me to use anything but turtle -> steamroll tactics. I can literally send a giant army and take out half it's buildings, take a moment to do something elsewhere on the map, and within 40 seconds it'll have all of its buildings rebuilt, at the exact same places.
I'm too lazy to start or finish any of my other games. I need to fix that somehow. I need to watch my movies and delete them. I need to finish up the last 4 seasons of entourage. There's a backlog of games that would take me a few months with dedication to finish, but honestly I just do not care.
I've known this since I finished high school : if I have a lot of stuff to do, I can do it and start enjoying the time I have for games. I remember when I would go to school and then to work, get home at 10, and play for 30 minutes or something of Marvel vs SNK on Xbox live and then sleep and do it all over again.
I used to wanna live on my own, but I don't think I'll ever live on my own anymore. I don't even care. Let me have a year, in the states, or even japan, and that's not even a wish at this point. I'll be happy with going to Thailand or wherevers cheap for a month and just doing my thing for a few weeks alone. I guess most guys would wanna go to have girls and drinks and whatever, me I just wanna relax.
I wanna get on this poetry recital thing, but really, if I'm broke as usual, I don't even wanna do that, because I'll look like a bum with the same clothes that I've been wearing for 2 years now. Same pants, same shirts, except half I can't wear cuz I'm still overweight. It's taking one or two big steps forward, just to go back to square one.
But for me, square one isn't a horrible place to be at all. I've got my family, my health, and so far, that's enough.
God bless me and my family.