For the record, I'm scared

Jun 28, 2011 23:25

In the big-girl world of danger now.  Is this a DISCLAIMER?  I'm so used to saying "disclaimer."  No.  It's just a record.

I'm a little bit paranoid, and slightly more legitimately afraid that Dan Monaco, my former best friend who I've known since the good old days at St. John the Evangelist church, is going to try and hurt me and/or my boyfriend AK.  Why all the specificity, built up like a court case, but not my boyfriend's name?

I live in a world of paranoia.  Everyone's paranoid here.  Facebook, Google, Sony, blah, blah, blah.  I'm afraid of information and embrace it at the same time.  But I guess all you really need to know that if Dan Monaco attempts to hurt either me or Alexey, I'm going to call the police.  I'm going to get a restraining order against him.  He's going to leave me, Alexey, and my sister Olivia (who he knew well) alone.  But should I really be afraid?  He's just a "lost cause," according to my mom, and 'it's sad."

LISTEN TO ME.  I read literature and my mind has run away without me, both for and against my will.  I know how people like him work.  He's going to retaliate.  I'm already going weak worrying about it.

I'm afraid to say any more.
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