from ladycrim
And don't try to guess...
1. Yes you are very attractive. You're right about that. But you're wrong about the fact that "obnoxious" and "charming" are the same thing.
2. We're not friends because for some reason you decided I wasn't good enough anymore. However, we were close for a long time, and despite the hurt in the past, I still wish you happiness.
3. You had a rough childhood,yes. You had a domineering and a emotionally abusive mother, yes. I really can't fathom your pain because despite my personal tragedies, I seem to be doing ok. I hope it gets better for you, but I don't think it will until you decide to stop letting the past hurt you.
4. I miss you so much. I want you to know that I'm doing ok, and I love you, and thank you for everything you gave me. I wish we'd had the time to get to know each other before you were taken.
5. I was never hard to find. You knew where my grandmother lived, you'd been there. You could have found me if you wanted to. You had rights that you never exercised, and to claim that you fought for me is bullshit. I'm still not hard to find. If you look for me in Google, you will come up with several ways to contact me. I can only assume that you're just not interested. I can't fathom that either, it goes against my every instinct. However, just so you know, though I clearly harbor resentment towards you, I don't have a you-shaped hole in my life. That role was admirably filled. I don't need you. My feelings for you are for the most part a detached curiosity, and confused resentment.
6. You unholy bitch. I can't believe a child-hating harpy like you was allowed to teach for her entire career. You made my school life hell. In fact you taught me to hate and fear school. You singled me out for humiliation. You shouted, insulted and abused. You pushed me to the ground when I didn't walk fast enough to suit you and continually dominated me until I was afraid to speak out. That year was the longest of my life. The things you said to me and some of the other children ring in my ears to this day, and they still shock me. How dare you? Do you know what that did to me? My father was dying at home, I had no friends my own age, and my stressed out family was continually fighting. In second grade school had been a refuge, in third grade it became a hell of fear and mortification of spirit. All I learned was how to hide within myself, show no pain o hurt, because when I did, you ridiculed me for it. It took me years to recover from that. Bitch.
7.Get your ass off that fucking couch and get a goddamn job. You're my blood, but I'd trade you for your wife any day. She's worth 10 of you, and if you don't climb out of that trough of depression and do something with your time... It doesn't even have to make money! Volunteer, coach little league, get your fucking GED. You're 46 years old for christ's sake! Stop relying on women to take care of you. Be a goddamn Man.
8. I really hope juice and jesus cure your breast cancer, but I don't think they will. I do hope you find peace somehow, your life has been so senseless to this point.
9. Look at what you did to your children. Have you noticed how fucked up they are? Did you notice that the two youngest, who spent the most time with you and had the least time with their father, are the two worst off? Do you see what withholding love, and being generous with cruel criticism has wrought? And how could you say to me that, "people who can't afford to go to college, just don't go to college" when I asked you for a lousy $200 for textbooks? YOU could have afforded to send me to college. YOU could have sent your children to college so my mom could have been in a position to help me out. But no, you held on to every scrap of money after your husband died, even though it was his expressed wish that his children have an education.
10. Stop complaining that your mother wouldn't give you money to go to college. Yeah, she was withholding and critical, but for teh love o'Pete! You were living in CALIFORNIA in the EARLY/MID 70's!!! The state practically paid for you to go. You woulda had some very light student loans, but you would have been done by the time I was born. YOU didn't go out and try, because the solution wasn't immediately obvious. You're not willing to inconvenience yourself to get what you want or need. That's why you're still 100lbs overweight. You live 4 miles from work. Bike there. You work across the street from your company's fitness center! Go at lunch! And don't tell me you want to work up to cardio by starting with weights - it doesn't work that way and you never lift enough to make a difference. You just don't like how you feel when you're doing cardio - it's too uncomfortable. And hey, you lost 35lbs on South Beach last year, and each time I talk to you you say you're about to go on it again, BUT YOU NEVER DO! Just DO it. DO something. My god! The fucking ENTROPY in my family. It's like everyone is just slowly falling apart and unwilling to do anything about it.
11. Oh yeah, I'd totally do you if I weren't taken. But you're not quite ripe yet - you need a few more years to get over yourself - then you'll be devastating.
12. Stop whining and get a life. Life, love and happiness aren't going to just drop into your lap. You have to go get it.
13. You don't know me, but I've been reading your livejournal off and on for entertainment. You have got to be the most self-deluded, self-righteous person ever. You are not a guru, you're not even mildly enlightened. You're so absorbed in your own spiritual journey that you don't notice that you're not even going anywhere. Your journal is one of those mean little pleasures I allow myself when I feel like feeling superior. I realize this makes me a not-nice-person, but I do enjoy my cynicism from time to time. And at least I'm aware of it as a personal flaw. I don't go around pushing people out of my life who don't conform to my narrow little worldview. Wow, that was nasty.
14. You don't know me, but I've been reading your livejournal off and on for entertainment. You're incredibly inspiring. Your courage and strength blow my mind and though we've never spoken, I'm so proud of what you've accomplished in the last year since I've been following your story. Congratulations, and I hope you get everything you ever dreamed of.
15. You're a jerk. Hurry up and die and stop screwing up my country.
1. Yes you are very attractive. You're right about that. But you're wrong about the fact that "obnoxious" and "charming" are the same thing.
2. We're not friends because for some reason you decided I wasn't good enough anymore. However, we were close for a long time, and despite the hurt in the past, I still wish you happiness.
3. You had a rough childhood,yes. You had a domineering and a emotionally abusive mother, yes. I really can't fathom your pain because despite my personal tragedies, I seem to be doing ok. I hope it gets better for you, but I don't think it will until you decide to stop letting the past hurt you.
4. I miss you so much. I want you to know that I'm doing ok, and I love you, and thank you for everything you gave me. I wish we'd had the time to get to know each other before you were taken.
5. I was never hard to find. You knew where my grandmother lived, you'd been there. You could have found me if you wanted to. You had rights that you never exercised, and to claim that you fought for me is bullshit. I'm still not hard to find. If you look for me in Google, you will come up with several ways to contact me. I can only assume that you're just not interested. I can't fathom that either, it goes against my every instinct. However, just so you know, though I clearly harbor resentment towards you, I don't have a you-shaped hole in my life. That role was admirably filled. I don't need you. My feelings for you are for the most part a detached curiosity, and confused resentment.
6. You unholy bitch. I can't believe a child-hating harpy like you was allowed to teach for her entire career. You made my school life hell. In fact you taught me to hate and fear school. You singled me out for humiliation. You shouted, insulted and abused. You pushed me to the ground when I didn't walk fast enough to suit you and continually dominated me until I was afraid to speak out. That year was the longest of my life. The things you said to me and some of the other children ring in my ears to this day, and they still shock me. How dare you? Do you know what that did to me? My father was dying at home, I had no friends my own age, and my stressed out family was continually fighting. In second grade school had been a refuge, in third grade it became a hell of fear and mortification of spirit. All I learned was how to hide within myself, show no pain o hurt, because when I did, you ridiculed me for it. It took me years to recover from that. Bitch.
7.Get your ass off that fucking couch and get a goddamn job. You're my blood, but I'd trade you for your wife any day. She's worth 10 of you, and if you don't climb out of that trough of depression and do something with your time... It doesn't even have to make money! Volunteer, coach little league, get your fucking GED. You're 46 years old for christ's sake! Stop relying on women to take care of you. Be a goddamn Man.
8. I really hope juice and jesus cure your breast cancer, but I don't think they will. I do hope you find peace somehow, your life has been so senseless to this point.
9. Look at what you did to your children. Have you noticed how fucked up they are? Did you notice that the two youngest, who spent the most time with you and had the least time with their father, are the two worst off? Do you see what withholding love, and being generous with cruel criticism has wrought? And how could you say to me that, "people who can't afford to go to college, just don't go to college" when I asked you for a lousy $200 for textbooks? YOU could have afforded to send me to college. YOU could have sent your children to college so my mom could have been in a position to help me out. But no, you held on to every scrap of money after your husband died, even though it was his expressed wish that his children have an education.
10. Stop complaining that your mother wouldn't give you money to go to college. Yeah, she was withholding and critical, but for teh love o'Pete! You were living in CALIFORNIA in the EARLY/MID 70's!!! The state practically paid for you to go. You woulda had some very light student loans, but you would have been done by the time I was born. YOU didn't go out and try, because the solution wasn't immediately obvious. You're not willing to inconvenience yourself to get what you want or need. That's why you're still 100lbs overweight. You live 4 miles from work. Bike there. You work across the street from your company's fitness center! Go at lunch! And don't tell me you want to work up to cardio by starting with weights - it doesn't work that way and you never lift enough to make a difference. You just don't like how you feel when you're doing cardio - it's too uncomfortable. And hey, you lost 35lbs on South Beach last year, and each time I talk to you you say you're about to go on it again, BUT YOU NEVER DO! Just DO it. DO something. My god! The fucking ENTROPY in my family. It's like everyone is just slowly falling apart and unwilling to do anything about it.
11. Oh yeah, I'd totally do you if I weren't taken. But you're not quite ripe yet - you need a few more years to get over yourself - then you'll be devastating.
12. Stop whining and get a life. Life, love and happiness aren't going to just drop into your lap. You have to go get it.
13. You don't know me, but I've been reading your livejournal off and on for entertainment. You have got to be the most self-deluded, self-righteous person ever. You are not a guru, you're not even mildly enlightened. You're so absorbed in your own spiritual journey that you don't notice that you're not even going anywhere. Your journal is one of those mean little pleasures I allow myself when I feel like feeling superior. I realize this makes me a not-nice-person, but I do enjoy my cynicism from time to time. And at least I'm aware of it as a personal flaw. I don't go around pushing people out of my life who don't conform to my narrow little worldview. Wow, that was nasty.
14. You don't know me, but I've been reading your livejournal off and on for entertainment. You're incredibly inspiring. Your courage and strength blow my mind and though we've never spoken, I'm so proud of what you've accomplished in the last year since I've been following your story. Congratulations, and I hope you get everything you ever dreamed of.
15. You're a jerk. Hurry up and die and stop screwing up my country.