Restless
Oh God, my heart is restless. I am reminded of the Scriptures saying the Son of Man has no place to rest His head [Matthew 8:20] -- but what does that mean for me? Sometimes when i think of something but have no trace of where that thought comes from -- usually in times of decision making and other important moments -- i receive a peace knowing that this was not my thought and believe it must be from God. In the case of being reminded of this verse, i can't really determine why i thought of it simply because i am unsure of it's relevance to my restlessness, but saying it came from God would be a mighty bold statement. I'm leaning toward some sort of encouragement for relating this verse to my current state. It's a reminder of what Christ has been through and of the things i may go through as well. If this is for encouragement then i've yet to figure out how to let it impact me in any way, except for having it as a comforting thought. I believe there is an explanation for this reminder, so if you are led by God please pray for me to have clarity on this matter. Thanks :-)
I believe it is important to know why my heart is restless. It was either by my own doing or by God's, and i'd love to have some confirmation on which it is. To describe a little more of my restless state, i am alive and well BUT:
- i feel a sort of emptiness
- nothing seems to be happening; i'm not sure if i'm coming to forks in the road or if i'm moving at all
- i'm missing answers
- i've got to continue making decisions of where to store my love, and this one is going to take precise decision making and plenty of effort
- restlessness = little i can say to describe it well
- i'm being patient but not sure how to explain it; something is faint
- sleep comes late and ends early
- this next school year is going to be different in many ways, but still as normal as always, and yes this may play a role in my current state
Well, i intended to make progress and expected this to provoke emotion, but little of either happened. Actually, some progress was made, but i don't think it will be at the level of progress that i'm hoping for in order to figure this stuff out. I'm sure you who reads this will have little to help you understand any of this or even why i typed this. Anyway, i want to post again tomorrow but i won't count on it. I wish to be more inspirational / thought provoking / encouraging / confirming for all of you, which i am capable of but i have yet to see much impact of my life to yours. Let me know how i can be praying for you, friends. I've come to realize that my life is meaningless unless i devote myself fully to Christ. Please pray that i become more passionate about a life engulfed in Christ. Simple, but beneficial. God bless you all, to His glory! Btw, i can hardly wait to see you again Jessie!
Shalom,
~Jacob
I believe it is important to know why my heart is restless. It was either by my own doing or by God's, and i'd love to have some confirmation on which it is. To describe a little more of my restless state, i am alive and well BUT:
- i feel a sort of emptiness
- nothing seems to be happening; i'm not sure if i'm coming to forks in the road or if i'm moving at all
- i'm missing answers
- i've got to continue making decisions of where to store my love, and this one is going to take precise decision making and plenty of effort
- restlessness = little i can say to describe it well
- i'm being patient but not sure how to explain it; something is faint
- sleep comes late and ends early
- this next school year is going to be different in many ways, but still as normal as always, and yes this may play a role in my current state
Well, i intended to make progress and expected this to provoke emotion, but little of either happened. Actually, some progress was made, but i don't think it will be at the level of progress that i'm hoping for in order to figure this stuff out. I'm sure you who reads this will have little to help you understand any of this or even why i typed this. Anyway, i want to post again tomorrow but i won't count on it. I wish to be more inspirational / thought provoking / encouraging / confirming for all of you, which i am capable of but i have yet to see much impact of my life to yours. Let me know how i can be praying for you, friends. I've come to realize that my life is meaningless unless i devote myself fully to Christ. Please pray that i become more passionate about a life engulfed in Christ. Simple, but beneficial. God bless you all, to His glory! Btw, i can hardly wait to see you again Jessie!
Shalom,
~Jacob