you are my only--my only one

[spokenreason]

tonight has been very stressful. my day started off pretty well. jess came over. we cooked. and tried to sleep but ran out of time. saw two movies sort of. and went to the dairy bar. things got kinda bad then, and we ended up "fighting" until about ten minutes ago. we never fought often. and when we do it's about the same thing. i won't get into that right now--just know that we're just dandy and hopefully this won't come up ever again. actually, i know it wont. because i know that whats-her-face means nothing to her and so does the other whats-her-face. the trust is there. i don't know what makes me so scared sometimes. i have nothing to worry about. we're together and that's how it's going to be. i dont really care who doesn't like it. yes, she hurt me. yes, i hurt her. we're past that. it's different now.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow. once she gets her taxes done she's coming over for a long sleep. i guess we'll find something to eat too. but mostly sleep and no one will be here to bother us. we'll be fine. i'm waiting for august, really. and i really think we're going to get there without having anything to worry or fight about. it's that strong. i promise.

i think we made a new friend today at walmart. long story. i'm too tired to type it all out right now. maybe if jess ever updates (cough cough) she can talk about it.

anyway. that's it for now. i'm looking online for a tux for formal/prom. so i'm off.