all smiles
it is such a good feeling to know that i have the potential of being really happy. it is so good to know that i have friends that are willing to deal with problems with me and be completely honest no matter how they think i will react. it is so nice to know that they will tell me anything. i may have the chance of even being with someone who is a real man. it will not happen right away but i can be patient and i am loving the friendship right now. we had our first real fight today and the fact that he was willing to talk to me about the problem RIGHT away was wonderful. the fact that he was completely honest with me was also great. it has made me relax so much more than i have been able to in a very long time. he made me feel like i can really be me without having to worry about what he will think or how he will react. i do not like putting friendships at risk but i also need to put me first and the fact that i can put me first without putting our friendship at risk is wonderful. i really can come back from this break down and be me again and that is wonderful.