Still confused
I am so confused. Feel free to read this rant and give me your oppinion.
I have decided that I am not going to be more than friends with the person who decided we were dating after having dinner once. The problem that I am trying to solve is what to do next. I have to desire to have someone or something more but I have no idea how to do that without having more problems due to it. I feel the desire to have another involvement. To have someone to get affection from, to hang out with, and perhaps even sleep with. I feel like I may want it but I am not sure. I am certain that I enjoy getting attention and affection from just about anyone. I am also certain that I would enjoy having someone in my life whom that is a part of the relationship.
I am not sure what to do though. So many people I care about and have a deap respect for would begin to think less of me if this were the case. I am not sure that I want to sleep with them,at this point and I think that many people would concider me a tease or worse if I were getting affection from someone that I may or may not sleep with. I do not see a problem with this type of relationship should he be made aware of the situation ahead of time and agree to it.
That brings me to my next problem. Where am I going to find someone that is willing to give me the affection and attention that I am so craving without sex. I am kinda curious about having sex woth other people. I have not had that much experience with such things but at the same time I know that I cannot sleep with someone that I do not even know. Is it a bad thing that I am not willing to sleep with people I do not know? Would this make me pretentious or would this give me standads? I am not sure why it is I care about what other people think about me but I do. I, for some reason, feel the need to get the approval of the people I care about before i do anything.
I thought I was past all of this but I guess I am not. Back to the think taknk to figure some more things out.
I have decided that I am not going to be more than friends with the person who decided we were dating after having dinner once. The problem that I am trying to solve is what to do next. I have to desire to have someone or something more but I have no idea how to do that without having more problems due to it. I feel the desire to have another involvement. To have someone to get affection from, to hang out with, and perhaps even sleep with. I feel like I may want it but I am not sure. I am certain that I enjoy getting attention and affection from just about anyone. I am also certain that I would enjoy having someone in my life whom that is a part of the relationship.
I am not sure what to do though. So many people I care about and have a deap respect for would begin to think less of me if this were the case. I am not sure that I want to sleep with them,at this point and I think that many people would concider me a tease or worse if I were getting affection from someone that I may or may not sleep with. I do not see a problem with this type of relationship should he be made aware of the situation ahead of time and agree to it.
That brings me to my next problem. Where am I going to find someone that is willing to give me the affection and attention that I am so craving without sex. I am kinda curious about having sex woth other people. I have not had that much experience with such things but at the same time I know that I cannot sleep with someone that I do not even know. Is it a bad thing that I am not willing to sleep with people I do not know? Would this make me pretentious or would this give me standads? I am not sure why it is I care about what other people think about me but I do. I, for some reason, feel the need to get the approval of the people I care about before i do anything.
I thought I was past all of this but I guess I am not. Back to the think taknk to figure some more things out.