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So...I'm officially running away from my problems.
Michael decided he doesn't want anything serious and that we should just be friends...I can't do that...and I feel like we belong together...but I'm not going to be all up in his bidness about it and try to get him to take me back or anything crazy. But I am moving in with my mom for a little while and hopefully getting an apartment with my Gillian! I'm trying to just make the best out of a really terrible situation...and I think in the proccess I'm putting up a huge front...but I don't know what else to do. I'm tired of being sad. I hate that I relied so much on Michael for my happiness, but he was my rock. So now I'm just kind of...floating....in nothingness.
What frustrates me is that now he's upset that I'm moving because of him. What else did he think I was going to do? I'm not in school...all my friends are his friends too...I can't escape him. I can't heal here.
He told me not to "wait around for him" but at this point that's all i'm going to do. I don't plan on pining for him for 20 some odd years...but for the next year...unless I meet Prince William or something...I'm still going to be all in this, especially considering I think I love him. I kept trying to tell him that I just want him to call me when he thinks he's ready for a relationship...but he kept saying not to wait around...I'm not an idiot...Jesus.
Whatever. More later...I have a feeling I'll have way more time on my hands to update.
Fuck Life.
Michael decided he doesn't want anything serious and that we should just be friends...I can't do that...and I feel like we belong together...but I'm not going to be all up in his bidness about it and try to get him to take me back or anything crazy. But I am moving in with my mom for a little while and hopefully getting an apartment with my Gillian! I'm trying to just make the best out of a really terrible situation...and I think in the proccess I'm putting up a huge front...but I don't know what else to do. I'm tired of being sad. I hate that I relied so much on Michael for my happiness, but he was my rock. So now I'm just kind of...floating....in nothingness.
What frustrates me is that now he's upset that I'm moving because of him. What else did he think I was going to do? I'm not in school...all my friends are his friends too...I can't escape him. I can't heal here.
He told me not to "wait around for him" but at this point that's all i'm going to do. I don't plan on pining for him for 20 some odd years...but for the next year...unless I meet Prince William or something...I'm still going to be all in this, especially considering I think I love him. I kept trying to tell him that I just want him to call me when he thinks he's ready for a relationship...but he kept saying not to wait around...I'm not an idiot...Jesus.
Whatever. More later...I have a feeling I'll have way more time on my hands to update.
Fuck Life.