Uni...again
I don't know what to do.
It's back to that time of year again, and I don't feel any differently. I DO NOT WANT TO LEAVE HOME!
There. I said it. I don't want to go. I don't want to be in a different country with nobody I really know, surrounded by people who just want to go to parties. I don't like parties, but I don't want everyone there to think I'm a freak if I don't go to them. If I'm completely honest, I just don't see myself being able to stick it out for more than a couple of days. The stupid damn problem is this though - I want to do that course. I really do. It's what I've always wanted to do, ever since I was about eight years old. I can't help thinking that if I don't go I'll be missing out on an important opportunity.
Which brings me to Abba - their songs are so bloody relevant to my life. Seriously. 'Money, Money, Money', 'I Have A Dream', 'Gimme Gimme Gimme', 'I Wonder', 'Under Attack' and 'Slipping Through My Fingers' especially - they all perfectly describe different aspects of my life. Oddly enough, four of the above are extremely relevant to this going to university thing. Especially 'I Wonder':
"I wonder, it's frightening
Leaving now, is that the right thing?
I wonder, it scares me
But who the hell am I if I don't even try?"
I just wish I did have the courage to try, but I really don't think I do. =(
It's back to that time of year again, and I don't feel any differently. I DO NOT WANT TO LEAVE HOME!
There. I said it. I don't want to go. I don't want to be in a different country with nobody I really know, surrounded by people who just want to go to parties. I don't like parties, but I don't want everyone there to think I'm a freak if I don't go to them. If I'm completely honest, I just don't see myself being able to stick it out for more than a couple of days. The stupid damn problem is this though - I want to do that course. I really do. It's what I've always wanted to do, ever since I was about eight years old. I can't help thinking that if I don't go I'll be missing out on an important opportunity.
Which brings me to Abba - their songs are so bloody relevant to my life. Seriously. 'Money, Money, Money', 'I Have A Dream', 'Gimme Gimme Gimme', 'I Wonder', 'Under Attack' and 'Slipping Through My Fingers' especially - they all perfectly describe different aspects of my life. Oddly enough, four of the above are extremely relevant to this going to university thing. Especially 'I Wonder':
"I wonder, it's frightening
Leaving now, is that the right thing?
I wonder, it scares me
But who the hell am I if I don't even try?"
I just wish I did have the courage to try, but I really don't think I do. =(