But for now, I want to stay in this quiet town
There will be a longwinded "End Of An Era" post later on.
But for now,
There's a song on, singing my own feelings back to me. There's a person on the other end of the IM that I've just shared Doctor Who with, and then a brief conversation about life and where we're at. And how a preposition is a bad word to end on.
Many folks around here have recently been expressing their love to me in different ways.
My church friends don't want me to leave.
The family I live with said they don't want me to go.
My manager said she'll miss me.
Heck, even my regular customers don't want me to abandon them.
It feels like everyone has been expressing their love or appreciation in various ways lately, and I think that is going to leave a lasting positive memory about this place. I almost want to think about staying, but I know that it will be healthier for me to go than to stay. I'm happy to leave with the feeling of being welcome back.
It's sort of sad that I've only recently felt more comfortable among certain circles of friends at church, and now I'm leaving. But I'll be back. I'll visit at least once. They shall live in my mind as actively as King Dan, Andrew Bean, and all of those other cherished people.
Didi's recent resumption of talking to me has been pretty cool, too. There is no feeling of forgetting our past - our history stands, and retains it's value. We may not be "close" like we were, but in more than a few ways there is a trust accompanying the history, and I love that the trust/friendship was not destroyed over the fall/winter. We aren't companions or confidants, but that's okay. We aren't enemies or strangers, and I think that things are as they should be.
Didi's recent official attachment (courtship is the word they're using) to Ben K has been a source of happiness and prayer for me. I see good and ill from this, but I am certain that God will use it to grow both of them, and I'm on board with that.
I worked with a new person tonight, named Janice. She turned out to be a very competent worker, an intelligent conversationalist, and she has some similar interests and whatnot as me. Unfortunately I will probably never see her again. But then, I'm leaving all my coworkers, and I appreciate many of them in different ways.
'Tis Tuesday night. Tomorrow is my last caregroup meeting. Thursday is my last day of work. Friday-Sunday is my last event with people from GCC. Monday and Tuesday will be my last days with the Nordykes. Wednesday-ish will be the end of Virginia for me. Thursday will then, probably, be the time I roll into DuBois and realize what a bad choice I made. :P fret not, I jest.
But for now,
There's a song on, singing my own feelings back to me. There's a person on the other end of the IM that I've just shared Doctor Who with, and then a brief conversation about life and where we're at. And how a preposition is a bad word to end on.
Many folks around here have recently been expressing their love to me in different ways.
My church friends don't want me to leave.
The family I live with said they don't want me to go.
My manager said she'll miss me.
Heck, even my regular customers don't want me to abandon them.
It feels like everyone has been expressing their love or appreciation in various ways lately, and I think that is going to leave a lasting positive memory about this place. I almost want to think about staying, but I know that it will be healthier for me to go than to stay. I'm happy to leave with the feeling of being welcome back.
It's sort of sad that I've only recently felt more comfortable among certain circles of friends at church, and now I'm leaving. But I'll be back. I'll visit at least once. They shall live in my mind as actively as King Dan, Andrew Bean, and all of those other cherished people.
Didi's recent resumption of talking to me has been pretty cool, too. There is no feeling of forgetting our past - our history stands, and retains it's value. We may not be "close" like we were, but in more than a few ways there is a trust accompanying the history, and I love that the trust/friendship was not destroyed over the fall/winter. We aren't companions or confidants, but that's okay. We aren't enemies or strangers, and I think that things are as they should be.
Didi's recent official attachment (courtship is the word they're using) to Ben K has been a source of happiness and prayer for me. I see good and ill from this, but I am certain that God will use it to grow both of them, and I'm on board with that.
I worked with a new person tonight, named Janice. She turned out to be a very competent worker, an intelligent conversationalist, and she has some similar interests and whatnot as me. Unfortunately I will probably never see her again. But then, I'm leaving all my coworkers, and I appreciate many of them in different ways.
'Tis Tuesday night. Tomorrow is my last caregroup meeting. Thursday is my last day of work. Friday-Sunday is my last event with people from GCC. Monday and Tuesday will be my last days with the Nordykes. Wednesday-ish will be the end of Virginia for me. Thursday will then, probably, be the time I roll into DuBois and realize what a bad choice I made. :P fret not, I jest.