Looking for specific Sam/Dean fic
Hi, I am looking for a specific Sam/Dean fic that is probably about ~10 years old and only a couple of thousand words long.
What I remember:
- Dean POV
- Sam & Dean were in an established relationship
- Dean asked to fuck Sam but the first time they tried, it didn't go well because Sam tried to force himself to take Dean. The second time they tried it went much better because Sam was more relaxed and let Dean take it slow.
- Sam was fairly apprehensive throughout the whole thing. There was no coercion or anything like that but there was a slight implication he has some previous issues or hangups.
- They used lotion the second attempt and there was a comment about it smelling nice.
- Initially, the sex started with Sam on his back, but then Dean pulled him up to sit in his lap. Dean came first, then offered to blow Sam but Sam said no, maybe in the morning.
- Sam started to fall asleep and Dean was touching him, just smoothing his hand up and down his body, and noted that previously Sam had some hangups being touched in certain places but now he didn't seem to have an issue with Dean touching him there.
- While I would classify the fic was a PWP, it was also what I can only describe as an emotional PWP as well. The focus of the fic was more about feelings than sexy times.
What I remember:
- Dean POV
- Sam & Dean were in an established relationship
- Dean asked to fuck Sam but the first time they tried, it didn't go well because Sam tried to force himself to take Dean. The second time they tried it went much better because Sam was more relaxed and let Dean take it slow.
- Sam was fairly apprehensive throughout the whole thing. There was no coercion or anything like that but there was a slight implication he has some previous issues or hangups.
- They used lotion the second attempt and there was a comment about it smelling nice.
- Initially, the sex started with Sam on his back, but then Dean pulled him up to sit in his lap. Dean came first, then offered to blow Sam but Sam said no, maybe in the morning.
- Sam started to fall asleep and Dean was touching him, just smoothing his hand up and down his body, and noted that previously Sam had some hangups being touched in certain places but now he didn't seem to have an issue with Dean touching him there.
- While I would classify the fic was a PWP, it was also what I can only describe as an emotional PWP as well. The focus of the fic was more about feelings than sexy times.