Gabriel/Sam bonding fic

[cr8zymommy]

Hello again, mes amis! I'm trying my darndest to find this random bonding fic I read forever and a day ago. I know it was Sam/Gabriel and the rest of it is only stuff I think I know. If I remember right, it was after Gabriel had died and Sam was just falling apart, not eating, all of that. I remember Gabriel coming back and I remember something with bonding or pregnancy and how absolutely painful the ritual was for Sam. Gabriel had to take him away to do it because he said Sam would scream. And I remember adorableness of Sam sitting on Gabriel's lap being fed.

If this sounds familiar to any of you would you please let me know! I cannot find it and I'm going insane :P