BECAUSE SOME ACTUAL MENTAL STABILITY IS FAR TOO GRAND A LUXURY FOR ME...
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE - PLEASE - ENLIGHTEN ME?!?!
I DON'T - I DON'T BELIEVE IT. I WOULD KNOW. I WOULD REMEMBER!!!!
WAR - WAR SAID - THE FIRST TIME - WHEN I WAS IN HELL - BEFORE I CAME BACK HERE...
THAT I - THAT I HAD BECOME A DEMON!!! THAT - THAT HE PERSONALLY HELPED MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!
PLEASE, SOMEONE TELL ME IT ISN'T TRUE!!!!! IF I - IF I HAD BEEN A DEMON, ONE OF YOU WOULD HAVE TOLD ME, RIGHT?!?! AFTER ALL THIS TIME?!?! I MEAN, BETWEEN LUCI AND LIL AND ALI AND AZ - ONE OF YOU WOULD HAVE TOLD ME SOMETHING, RIGHT?!?!
AND HE SAID - HE SAID THAT ONLY AN ANGEL COULD HAVE MADE ME FORGET!!! COULD HAVE UN-DEMONED ME. OR FRIGGIN GOD! WHY?!?! THIS - THIS DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE!!!!! IF I - IF I WAS A DEMON WOULDN'T AN ANGEL HAVE JUST SMOTE ME?!?!? DID - WAS IT ONE OF YOU?!?!?! JUST - WHY?!?! I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!
I WASN'T - I WASN'T A DEMON. I'M NOT. I COULDN'T HAVE BEEN...
I KNOW I HAVE DARKNESS INSIDE OF ME. I KNOW THE DEMONIC SIDE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE.
BUT I'M NOT A DEMON!!! AND I NEVER - I NEVER WOULD HAVE - I MEAN, I KNOW HOW HORRIBLE HELL IS. I REMEMBER, FROM THIS PAST TIME AROUND. BUT I WOULDN'T HAVE SUCCUMBED...
I just always figured I had used my powers to escape before. Convinced the demons to let me out or something...