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[splyke]

I keep blowing off my friends. I'm too afraid that I have nothing to say to anyone that I don't even wanna be around them. I don't wanna be the guy sitting off to the side doing nothing, saying nothing as everyone else mingles.... so I just don't go anymore. In the past few weeks I have gone to bed at like 7-8 just so when they call to find out where I am I'm sleeping and I don't have to explain to them that I don't feel comfortable anywhere, and that it's not there fault it really has nothing to do with them. The worst was yesterday a friend who has moved to Arizona was back for a day and going bowling with friends and family and I didn't know some of the people so I freaked out and didn't visit my friend the one day they were in the area.

Anyways, same shit different day, I'm not doing anything to fix it so I shouldn't be complaining, but thats just the type of guy I am.