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now...i remember ...why i hated everything about every party that went on in winthrop. why i would have much rather spent the time with a boyfriend or something before i went to one. im so stupid. i do STUPID things and im entirely different than i used to be and i HATE it. and no one gets it. seriously. this post is so ridiculously typical it almost makes me laugh. except it doesnt. because im a complete idiot. i know everything i do is my own fault. sometimes i just wish i could GO BACK and not do half, or more than half, of the things i did. i do things without thinking , and then look back on them and get so mad at myself. i dont know WHAT to do. i appreciate everyone trying to calm me down but honestly no one gets it and its something im gonna have to accept about myself. i kind of wish things could have just stayed the way they were.