If you are anything like me, you probably expect absolute perfection on your first attempt at something. I approach my writing that way. It has to look perfect, sound perfect in every way. Which is why I am then loathe to ever share any of it. It's why I procrastinate about getting down to it. I find my expectations become so burdensome, they rob me of the joy I had simply writing.
The one thing I WAS able to break myself of was that nagging feeling I had to be 'doing something important' all of the time. I sat myself down and went over the history of the planet, tied it in with the history of all of mankind, thought about what I knew about my family even three generations back ... and then came to realization that there is no such thing as "important work". The value of our activity is place there solely by our own selves which is sometimes (often rarely) reflected back upon us by the adoring eyes of someone who appreciates the work we had done. But ask that person one month later and see what they remember of it. A dull smile will cross their face as they try to remember what exactly it was you did ... yeah, I get it.
In other words, the most important consideration is what we think of what we are doing. And if we disapprove, we have to ask ourselves 'why'? For myself, I find it is because I impute an expectation of result on them which I then find almost impossible to achieve. Which leads to more procrastination ... and on and on.
The one thing I WAS able to break myself of was that nagging feeling I had to be 'doing something important' all of the time. I sat myself down and went over the history of the planet, tied it in with the history of all of mankind, thought about what I knew about my family even three generations back ... and then came to realization that there is no such thing as "important work". The value of our activity is place there solely by our own selves which is sometimes (often rarely) reflected back upon us by the adoring eyes of someone who appreciates the work we had done. But ask that person one month later and see what they remember of it. A dull smile will cross their face as they try to remember what exactly it was you did ... yeah, I get it.
In other words, the most important consideration is what we think of what we are doing. And if we disapprove, we have to ask ourselves 'why'? For myself, I find it is because I impute an expectation of result on them which I then find almost impossible to achieve. Which leads to more procrastination ... and on and on.
Do what makes you happy. Period.
Cheers!
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