Yay update! :D
That struggle is over (kinda)..... done and over with (in its own neat way) its cool how God works things out :) these past few days I've been spending time with the girls and its been good to have fellowship and girl time.... been distant from boys (unintentionally) so I haven't had any weird confusions and questions etc etc with them and its relieving :D I love my dude friends ofcourse but sometimes I just need girl time and less weirdness within myself lol.... and I've noticed that the days when I take naps are the days when I'm really anxious/paranoid and out there o_O... isn't that kinda strange?? lol
I really hope to go to SBP this time and I hope I get to go though I don't know what God has planned for me..... it seems like I have no tasks to do in Hoover for right now and need that time in fellowship and training etc so SBP sounds really good right about now.... except I know no people who would help me with support etc etc... but ofcourse if God wants me to go he'll provide one way or another :D the semester is coming to an end and it just seems like not just this semester but this school year has just.... man that was FAST!!!!!!!!! its seems like it was just yesterday when we went to the basement regularly or met the girls for the first time or started journaling etc etc.... wow.... that was one FAST year o_O this might as well qualify for the shortest year I've ever experienced o_O but enough about that...
God has his own timings for our growth and the work he needs to get done within us.... so I guess this year was the beginning step for whatever he's preparing me for and maybe in the next 2 years or so I'll be ready for the next big step?? I dunno but we'll see (if I'm still alive in the next 2 years) :) I'm sure God has his reasons for why I'm a psych/social work major cuz I have no real idea of what the heck I'm gonna do and how I'll do it cuz I have no people skills ^^;; but yes I'm relieved and peaceful.... I hadn't felt peace in a ridiculously long time and I just begged God to give it to me and believed he would and he did :) I'm just glad cuz I was going insane :) God is so good cuz he does indeed answer prayers if you ask and believe :) keyword "BELIEVE"..... its important to BELIEVE that it will be given if its in his will.... and that's the second half of prayer that I always forget.... ah God is so good..... and that doesn't change whether we're having an awesome day or a horrific day..... its just hard to keep that in mind.... may we never forget it no matter what happens.....
I really hope to go to SBP this time and I hope I get to go though I don't know what God has planned for me..... it seems like I have no tasks to do in Hoover for right now and need that time in fellowship and training etc so SBP sounds really good right about now.... except I know no people who would help me with support etc etc... but ofcourse if God wants me to go he'll provide one way or another :D the semester is coming to an end and it just seems like not just this semester but this school year has just.... man that was FAST!!!!!!!!! its seems like it was just yesterday when we went to the basement regularly or met the girls for the first time or started journaling etc etc.... wow.... that was one FAST year o_O this might as well qualify for the shortest year I've ever experienced o_O but enough about that...
God has his own timings for our growth and the work he needs to get done within us.... so I guess this year was the beginning step for whatever he's preparing me for and maybe in the next 2 years or so I'll be ready for the next big step?? I dunno but we'll see (if I'm still alive in the next 2 years) :) I'm sure God has his reasons for why I'm a psych/social work major cuz I have no real idea of what the heck I'm gonna do and how I'll do it cuz I have no people skills ^^;; but yes I'm relieved and peaceful.... I hadn't felt peace in a ridiculously long time and I just begged God to give it to me and believed he would and he did :) I'm just glad cuz I was going insane :) God is so good cuz he does indeed answer prayers if you ask and believe :) keyword "BELIEVE"..... its important to BELIEVE that it will be given if its in his will.... and that's the second half of prayer that I always forget.... ah God is so good..... and that doesn't change whether we're having an awesome day or a horrific day..... its just hard to keep that in mind.... may we never forget it no matter what happens.....