Feb 14, 2008 14:36
I am not gonna stand on a pedestal and lecture the world on what I consider right and wrong. I am not perfect. It may come as a shock to y'all, but I am not (TRYING to keep this a lighter matter here). I am, however, going to say that I have never encountered such selfishness or ignorance in my 18 (almost 19- if you include this coming weekend) years of life. I've never stood in front of so many closed doors or heard so many 'nos' in my life. I have always heard 'yes' and 'where', but this time the cause was a different one and the responses changed as well. I don't think I've ever been so disappointed in the people around me, and as the effect- never been so disappointed in the world. The bitterness has awakened, and the shell has been activated. So, go ahead and live in your bubbles of ignorance and feed off your fungus of self-indulgence, I am done pleading. I have seen all that I need to see. I am one person today, and I will be that one person when I die. We will all see the same fate in the end, just some more gloriously than others. I thank those who have willingly sacrificed time and reserved space for good in your hearts. If I haven't already thanked you, it is because you don't need to be thanked. I don't care what excuses lie, my mindframe remains the same.
The Counterfeiters will be Foreign Language Film love.
Atonement MAY be love if I get to watch it soon. No Country for Old Men is love. To Whom it may concern: Good love is on the way. I love you all despite the disappointments you bring me... and I can only hope that I will be loved for the disappointments that I cause. Good day y'all and I still want a shawl.
Edit: IF YOU WANT TO GIVE ME SOMETHING FOR MY BIRTHDAY OR YOU JUST WANT TO BE A GOOD FRIEND, PASS BY FIU RELAY FRIDAY, FEB.15TH @ 5PM OR LATER. DONATIONS TO RFL WOULD BE APPRECIATED - THAT'S REALLY ALL I WANT TO ASK FOR. I may also be doing something that Saturday night, depending on how exhausted I am... Good day again.