It's been awhile...
I totally forgot I had this thing, and I figured i would update. I dont think anyone will read this but oh well. Lately, I have been thinking about alot of things. Things like friends, work, school, and other shit. Like my friends are cool, well the ones i still have. I feel I have lost alot of my friends, to either partying, drugs(pot really isnt a drug), or just lost communication. It seems alot of people just like to party and shit, and thats cool. But I feel theres a certain time when you just need to grow up, and not worry about partying and worry the more important things like working, and earning some money, and saving that money. But i cant tell people what they should do, its their choice. And Ive been feeling like everyone is living life and I'm just sitting still and life is passing me by. People are getting married, having kids, or atleast in serious relationships. And Like I feel I dont have anything, all i do is work, and hang out with my friends. I have also considered moving away to either back to where i used to or somewhere else. Ever since I moved down here about 7 years ago, This has never felt like home, or that i belong. And I dont like the feeling, when you dont belong somewhere. I have had a couple years that we good, but the other 5 have been irrevelant. I also starting questioning my friendships with certain people. Like back then it was fun, and i never second guess myself. But through the years, and the experiences, i have felt i dont have as many friends as i thought, like other than 5 or 6 people, everyone else are just aqaintances. And that sucks, but i guess thats life. Life...FUCK LIFE...I really dont understand life and how it works or what ever. but thats enough bitching and complaing for now.