PAHTEE!!!
Well, we had a party at the apartment last night. Jess invited her whole class and about 10 people showed up. It was cool though, anymore people and the one bedroom apartment might start to seem like a closet. I met a bunch of her classmates/friends. This one dude seems pretty cool, he's even got the same name as me. He's a second year pharmacy student at Jess's school that she just met the other night at another one of her classmates partys. He's beat call of Duty 2 and Oblivion my two favorite games this year. He also remembers Adam Sandler's first cd with Toll Booth Willy! That's a riot. No one ever get's it when I quote stuff from that cd like "For you my dear, a dollar twenty five" in the weird accent that Sandler does. He stayed over until like 3am when he finally felt sober enough to drive. It was just him, Jess and me for the last hour or so, before that Gary and his girlfriend were the last ones to leave. Jess was upset because Brandon was a hit and run only staying about an hour. No repeat of his drunken craziness from a few nights before in which I have seen some pretty funny pictures of and heard some stories.
I drank a little too much, I am regretting it today because my organs feel like they were run through a meat grinder. For some reason I ache all over my back and shoulders, neck and legs too. Its a rainy dreary depressing day. I could really use some sunshine about now. It would help with the hangover I think. I just cleaned up the apartment for Jess so she could study. I hope she appreciates it and realizes that would be a benefit of not dumping me when school starts to get tougher next year. Ben, the second year student, was telling everyone how bad this one class is and how much of your life it steals away. On top of that someone was talking about how pharmacy school breaks up just about every couple that it touches. That made me pretty depressed the rest of the night. We've already felt the strain, and Jess was about the dump me at one point. But I think she got it through my head how much more time she needs to devote to studying nowadays and I can definitely understand. I want her to succeed and I am willing to give her the space and work through the hard parts because I care so much about her. I love her so much and I love us, and I am willing to do whatever it takes. I don't know if she understands that sometimes, but I hope she does or will soon. She likes to blame me for her not studying, but when I come down here to spend whatever time I can with her. If that means simple hanging out with her for a half hour while she takes a break from studying, thats fine with me. I can entertain myself. I am the one who is trying to make her study when she would rather be watching Ali G or some random video on youtube. She seems to think that when she has a bunch of tests to study for one weekend that I shouldnt come down at all. I see it differently. I can come down and just spend time with her when she is taking breaks from studying like i was saying. Thats totally fine with me, if I came down one weekend and only spent like 2 hours total with her that would be fine. If she was studying her ass off the rest of weekend and could only take that much time for a break then whatever. Its so much better then not seeing each other at all in my opinion. I wish she could see it that way. I know she needs to study, and the last thing in the world I want to do is stop her from doing that. But she needs breaks too. And I have plenty of things I need to do for school on the weekend too. I just dont think not coming down at all when I know there will be down time we can spend together is a good idea. We dont see each other all week so its not like we should be sick of each other and need some time off. The weekends should be for studying and taking breaks together. Even as I sit here typing away and I am just in the same room as her while shes studying its spending time together. She also makes me out to be a distraction, but thats not all my fault, I tell her to do homework. If she has a badass test in the upcoming week, I tell her to study, she will be surfing the web and I will tell her to study. I dont know I am rambling now. I was just upset from some of the things said last night and had to get out my thoughts. Feels good.
I drank a little too much, I am regretting it today because my organs feel like they were run through a meat grinder. For some reason I ache all over my back and shoulders, neck and legs too. Its a rainy dreary depressing day. I could really use some sunshine about now. It would help with the hangover I think. I just cleaned up the apartment for Jess so she could study. I hope she appreciates it and realizes that would be a benefit of not dumping me when school starts to get tougher next year. Ben, the second year student, was telling everyone how bad this one class is and how much of your life it steals away. On top of that someone was talking about how pharmacy school breaks up just about every couple that it touches. That made me pretty depressed the rest of the night. We've already felt the strain, and Jess was about the dump me at one point. But I think she got it through my head how much more time she needs to devote to studying nowadays and I can definitely understand. I want her to succeed and I am willing to give her the space and work through the hard parts because I care so much about her. I love her so much and I love us, and I am willing to do whatever it takes. I don't know if she understands that sometimes, but I hope she does or will soon. She likes to blame me for her not studying, but when I come down here to spend whatever time I can with her. If that means simple hanging out with her for a half hour while she takes a break from studying, thats fine with me. I can entertain myself. I am the one who is trying to make her study when she would rather be watching Ali G or some random video on youtube. She seems to think that when she has a bunch of tests to study for one weekend that I shouldnt come down at all. I see it differently. I can come down and just spend time with her when she is taking breaks from studying like i was saying. Thats totally fine with me, if I came down one weekend and only spent like 2 hours total with her that would be fine. If she was studying her ass off the rest of weekend and could only take that much time for a break then whatever. Its so much better then not seeing each other at all in my opinion. I wish she could see it that way. I know she needs to study, and the last thing in the world I want to do is stop her from doing that. But she needs breaks too. And I have plenty of things I need to do for school on the weekend too. I just dont think not coming down at all when I know there will be down time we can spend together is a good idea. We dont see each other all week so its not like we should be sick of each other and need some time off. The weekends should be for studying and taking breaks together. Even as I sit here typing away and I am just in the same room as her while shes studying its spending time together. She also makes me out to be a distraction, but thats not all my fault, I tell her to do homework. If she has a badass test in the upcoming week, I tell her to study, she will be surfing the web and I will tell her to study. I dont know I am rambling now. I was just upset from some of the things said last night and had to get out my thoughts. Feels good.